My Country?

Let's see. I have a birth cert saying my time date and location where I was born. It is here.

Well then ... my parent's have just the same card .. and It is from here too.

And since I was small .. I just seem to live in this peaceful little town in a small cozy house with awesome parents. And it is in here.

Now I have a identity card, which also says I belong here.

Also I have a passport that tells me I am from here.

My dad also have a shop , and he is earning a living here.

Here. I suppose I will not deny that I am a pure breed Malaysian. Even though we Malaysian are a mix .. I suppose that is what makes us unique. Right? 53 years of independence has surely changed my country.

I would not close my eyes and claim that 53years of independence has been a smooth ride. In fact it was a quite bumpy one, with all the problems and issues both domestic and foreign. Even I am not around for the entire 53years but living here for 19years is enough to make me realize that governing and living in a multicultural nation is a constant challenge to everyone. There will always be an old problem unsolved and at the mean time new issues will emerge.

Admitting and being proud of being apart of something is 2 different matters. I would admit I am a Malaysian cause there every single detail of my past and almost everything I am now is related to this country. However as for being proud, well, i suppose this is different. I would like to be proud of this country, its like who doesnt wanna be proud of the place there are from? however with the recent racisim issues and political problems I find it hard to do so. Especially one of the most outrages ones from some headmistress that ask both us Chinese and Indians to go back home. Whats more , there are people that support this idea.

Well, why ask us to go back? Both races has agreed and admitted that they are now Malaysian. And we have contributed our blood and sweat to the development of this country of course in return we are provided with a safe haven. But more than that, we fought together for this country even before its formation and after. Isnt our 5 decade long history enough to let us all compromise and tolerate and cohabit more peacefully? Well, for one I know if country leaders and political leaders start dishing out comments and statements without their vocal brains our coexistance will be short lived.

Why state out false yet sensitive comments? And those that would hurt? I am a Chinese. And when what I saw what the Headmistress wrote, I really do feel like giving her a slap. Even if she is a lady. Cause she really do need that slap to wake her up from the bubble. And to those who supported that idea, I am really disappointed with such childish and primitive thoughts. Our country's education system do not bring up people like this. What bothers me more, is that she is a headmistress. Wth, She is suppose to be setting an example for the new generation. And frankly what she is doing now is not going to assure a harmony society in the future.

Diversity. It's always the assurance of survival. History thought us countless of times that nations survive because it is diverse enough. Although it also requires other factors but we will come to that on some other time. Even the survival of a species also thought us clearly that being diverse is the key. So with our nations being diverse, instead of being pessimist why not be optimistic? Instead holding a grudge against each other cause the sins of our fathers why not we move forward and work on our own specialized fields to improve this land we called our home? I know this sounds naive and that there would always be more complicated situations. But I believe if politicians & leaders would set their interest as for the greater good for everyone instead of a specific race(I am not pointing any fingers here).. I believe alot problems we have now can be solved and we can move on to tackle the actual more complicated problems.

Still. This is just my personal opinion. Freedom of speech eh?


Happy Birthday Malaysia. A country unlike any other in this world.

A song about

The Man who can't be moved.

Overly depressing much?

Oh well. Whole night bombarded by emo songs and drilling on math which eventually end up into an unproductive night plays apart.

I just forgot how awesome this song by The Script is.. And it does rings on some history... a not too distant one I suppose. I'm tired of running, so I guess I will take a time out for the night and be engulf by what was then bliss and now presently nothing of value. A trip down the memory lane is I suppose the only trip I can afford right now.

Policeman said, "Son, you can't stay here"
I said "There's someone I'm waiting for, if it's a day, a month, a year"
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows
If she changes her mind, this is the first place she will go
What is love exactly? Why do I miss something that was never mine?
I might have been in love before, but it never felt this strong.
MERDEKA EVE. I AM SKIPPING SCHOOL FOR A GOOD REST AND HOMESTUDY. TATA FOLKS. I'd rather stay home and sleep than to sing those awful songs. It sucks really.

P/s: Dude. I suppose we are still on the same boat ... even though I claimed I left it.

Some say it ain't over

till it's over
But I guess it's really over now
There's something I gotta say before I let you go
Listen...


Can't believe what's goin' on
Gotta keep my cool, be calm
When I heard you and he was screamin' out of control
All I can think about is "No, no, no... he won't
hurt the one I've cared for so long, long... Hell, no."
I know we're done, and now it's none of my concern but how
can two be windin' out from only weeks in goin' out
Just makes me feel that what we had was real
Could it be or is it too late? (Oh, oh baby)

chorus 1
Baby!
Listen to your heart, won't let you down
Cause you should be my Lady!
Now that we're apart love will show how
Life carries on...

I've never felt so strong
Life can lead us to a happiness never ending
If we just know that we belong to each other
Never worry, grow as we go
See you in your wedding dress
I can see you in your wedding dress
I see you walking down in your ... (wedding dress)
I can see you in your wedding dress (Oh, yea~)

I was never perfect no ~
But I'd never let it go to a point I'm ragin', throwin' making you uncomfortable
What he didn't, did to you was unacceptable
You claimed everything was okay. That's impossible
Just know I'm here for you
All clear for you from night to sun
God, I've been near to you, the feel of you gives me a rush
It makes me feel that what we have is real
It could never be too late

chorus 2
Baby!
Listen to your heart, won't let you down
Cause you should be my Lady!
Now that we're apart love will show how
Life carries on...

I've never felt so strong
Life can lead us to a happiness never ending
If we just know that we belong to each other
Never worry, grow as we go
See you in your wedding dress
I can see you in your wedding dress
I see you walking down in your ... (wedding dress)
I can see you in your wedding dress (Oh, yea~)

Baby girl you won't regret
Come along just take my hand
Let's start this journey livin' life so beautiful
This happy hope that we spread, love and see
It goes deeper so deep from my heart (Whoa oh~)

I've never felt so strong
Life can lead us to a happiness never ending
If we just know that we belong to each other
Never worry, grow as we go
See you in your wedding dress
I can see you in your wedding dress
Never let go... never let go

TaeYang's Wedding Dress in English.


P/s: Apparently there is 2 more covers did by Kelvin And Jreyz. All three have awesome lyrics.

Bag in a Boat

I was carrying a backpack inside a boat. A heavy one.. it was exactly the kind I went for 10/30/50km expedition with my scouts. The boat, was oddly familiar. It was like the ones traveling back and forth from Pangkor.

And I remember vividly, I said goodbye to someone. I can't remember that face, but I somehow felt that it is someone that I really knew well. You know, that kind where you can feel very comfortable with. For some reason I said goodbye to that person in the boat.

As I said it, I start running up deck.. I have no idea why am I rushing, but I was, It felt like I am gonna be late for something, or missing something. When I reach the door of the ferry I see the boat leaving the dock. Then, I have this urge to jump and grab onto the stairs. It just felt like no matter what I can't miss this stop.

After hesitating afew seconds I jumped. I missed the stairs clearly, cause I still have my bag pack with me. And the boat its too far away. The thing that woke me up was the feeling of free fall. Which at that time felt so damn real. It literally jolt me up.

It's been awhile I can remember a dream in such detail. And this was during a nap yesterday, just before dinner.


Just one afternoon of futsal and I am down for almost 2days. Physically tired. Mayb its cause I havent fully recover, but its evident enough I need to shape up my stamina >.< Oh, and 6th Form Night is coming.. need to find a good outfit!!!


Just though I scroll back to those demotivational posters for a laugh. :D



Whoever think monarchy is dead just didn't realize they changed zip codes.

Fragile

We all are. Even if we won't admit it.

The summer solstice had inevitably moved on
Along the possibilities of the summer gone
And with it comes the fall
And the chill of winter is on the horizon

As my memory rest in peace
Melancholy will be last thing that grips me
Like we did, when spring began
Wake me up when my September end

So. I've been using the toilet alot these two days. Can't help but felt abit attached to that place.(No i'm not going crazy if thats what ur thinking). I really do hope I can get well for tomoro's futsall. sigh. Why must I be bedridden(Nearly) sick at epic moments in life? Darn it.

P/s: feeling real darn dreamy after being bed ridden for nearly the whole day. ugh.

The Ride of my life

It's not what you think.
Never thought I can experience toilet phobia in just one morning.

eight.. EIGHT. The thought of even going to toilet makes me sick
It's like the toilet is evil or some shit.
Bah. I have a terrific imagination.

As for now, can't even feel my legs. Awesome.
I literally shit till I am tired.


Anyway this is a song from Chuck Season 2.
Chuck series never fails to deliver awesome songs at the right specific moments.

Right now
Before our world so green
Grows cold and changes scene
And the nights get darker

For now
I’m looking at the sun
Someday the rain might come
But I love the sunshine

I definitely like this song's lyrics.
P/s: Try thinking deeper if it doesn't make any sense.

Amazing life? Most unlikely.

Enjoyable? I suppose yes.
You know why?
Cause I finally sleep and dream. Problems free!!! Gosh I miss sleeping normally.

Took my 'beloved' for service just after my exams are over. Finally its running like it should be ... smooth and face baby =D . Well , its proton .. So i guess its just smooth =.=

I'm thinking of changing my car tyres to a bigger one
Small tyre is just so gay =.=

Oh! also had some bro-time *directly inspired by Jeff's bro-mance* with ma homies! =D Chatted the noon away at KennyRogers.

The guy on the left : I like Yoona
The guy on the right : I like TaeYeon!
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!!

Okay. Its random. I know. Like I care. This page is mine. =p

Oh btw.. i u read back i told you guys that by this weekend i would either be a zombie or a caffein overdosed maniac. Well after reading this I suppose you guys get the idea. Tata.

Chatted with my classmate in my car that day. It just made me realize that there are people with different taste in this world. =G
Someone, who sees the world the way I see mine yet still offers an entirely new perspective. It's gonna take a miracle. and I suppose it's gonna be one of a kind.
Miracle lies in the lives of the believer.

So, believe.

P/s: Random huh? I know I know. =D

Tears in Heaven

2 days of exams had drove me onto the wall literally. 2 days 4 cups of coffee *Self hypnotize-Coffee is water, Coffee is water.. * well over my self imposed quota. Well, I dint say it out, but past 2 months i've cut down on coffee. Cause I suspect i was addicted to it.. so i kinda experimented.

Then when I got back into a coffee spree.. it is as if my body have some allergic reaction to it. When I gulp down a cup of coffee my heart beat pumps up. And it persisted for like .. a couple of hours. Two nights, TWO, I fall asleep feeling my heartbeat beating the crap out of my chest. Still, a weird kinda experience. Well, I'm weird. Proud of it. =P

Was scrolling through my old phone's media files and I bumped onto this song. Damn i miss it so much. =D Its my current blog song. 'Tears in Heaven'.

Bumped onto this post too.. and I find it pretty encouraging. Given that I am struggling every single moment there is this year thinking about what should I study and what occupation I should pursue.

Work is love made visible. —Kahlil Gibran

About 80% of people are unhappy at work, and 20% are happy. Our culture has separated work from passion, and taught us to prefer a higher paycheck to higher happiness. That mistake costs us our souls. The goal of career development is to uncover one's gifts and passions, and to link them to the practical needs of the world. We call that "being in the right place," "finding a good fit," or "making the best use of one's talents."

In What Color Is Your Parachute? my mentor, Dick Bolles, quotes Fred Buechner, who writes, "There are all different kinds of voices calling you to all different kinds of work . . . (and) the place God calls you to is the place where your deep gladness and the world's deep hunger meet." [2001 Edition, page 57.]

High compensation and high happiness are not incompatible. It's not that we shouldn't seek money, and lots of it; many of our clients do. But we should first seek to love, or at least to like, what we're doing. That's the realization of our highest calling.

Well. I need to make my decision. No matter what, the decision must be Mine to make, no one should plan my future except me and me alone. My occupation, for sure, will not cost me my soul. LOL.

Oh and I AM ONLINE!!! LOL. Gonna have my modem back for Two weeks at least. Then I will be cut off again =(

Sometimes when life felt like its not worth living, My dreams are the only thing that says otherwise.

Friday the 13th

and I'm definitely nt suffering from Friggatriskaidekaphobia.
It's more like the exam plague =_____________________=

Anyway bumped onto this song which I find it quite nice and soothing.

Amidst the exam craze week .. I somehow manage to squeeze out an evening to let myself loose to attend the Hillsong Concert at Syuen. I went there at Thursday and boy it was very packed that night.. but from what I've heard it was way worse the night before .. people had to stand outside during the concert. Wow.

Anyway the concert was awesome. Minus the cramped space, hot atmosphere(Due to the cramp space), and Me being too short having problem to see the stage( =.= Not funny ).
On the upside, the message was pretty good :) And there is this two girls on my front left just kept dancing all the way during the ending worship.. which is a little amusing.

A quote from the speaker

"I challenge you to look at the mirror everyday and say ' You are going to have an awesome day and Something GREAT is goin to happen, Amen"

It will change your life.

And my life routine is screwed up. The greatest adversary one could face is none other than the person within. I am indeed struggling in almost every aspect of my life thinkable..Past,Present,Future.. its all so messed up. Anyway I guess my life cycle is gonna be pretty screwed up for the next 7 days which by the next weekend I'm most likely a soul drained corpse.. or A hyperactive psychopath due to over dosage of caffein.

And randomly.
Nothing taste better than maggi mee when ur hungry!

At this rate I will be suffering from claustrophobia by next week end too =.=

Closing my eyes,
and Living my life.
I will always keep the promise I made to myself,
Yet I do indulge in lies for a few brief moments.

Its funny, The way that I would fall back to the trap
Of being in the same situation..
Having the same strong feeling
to all the wrong people
over and over again.

Still,
always have
and
always will. I will keep it all to myself.
P/s: Time to take it up to the next level. I'm so gonna be a UltraNerd.

Check Yes Juliet

Here's the countdown:
3,2,1 you fall in my arms now
They can change the locks, don't let them change your mind

Lace up your shoes
Here's how we do
Run baby run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart if you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart, say we're not meant to be
Run baby run, forever will be
You and me

We're flying through the night
We're flying through the night
Way up high
The view from here is getting better with you
By my side

Enough with the EmoSongs. The cold wet weather deserve some warm songs. Or in this case, faster paced. =D

So, Life this week. Well in gearing up mode for the coming exams. No wait. I'm in chaos.. i feel so out of course right now. Not to mention lost.. and Dad conveniently brought up the subject about my future studies.. which is worrying to both me and my Dad cause I don't know which direction i'm heading. They(God knows who, i just heard it somehow) said, You can find urself entering form 6. Well .. i felt as if I lost my self. A figure of speech. Anyhow.. guess I just need time to think things through.

Also am quite out of steam at the moment. Wait its the 21st century.. we're using fuel now. Okay so I'm so out of fuel now .. GAH. Can't wait for trials to be over.. I'm actually planning to go to somewhere alone for the weekends.. mayb pangkor, langkawi, or penang. Anywhere with beaches. Still planning.. there is alot of stuff to settle if I would venture something like that = =. Problem no.1 financial problem .. and then transportation, loggings, bla bla bla..and more bla.

I'm out of fuel.. nearly.

Maybe .. i need a stimulant? o.0

Nah its just a joke

Parent's friend brought this for us. Well I dont know how to describe what it taste like. Its not my area of expertise.

And there's my name.

Remember The Name

Thats about it. I'm mentally exhausted .. thanks to Extra class on Saturday. Which literally ruined my weekends.

Oh btw, My dad has facebook(He is still awesome) ... don't think he found me yet.lol

Well, Look on the bright side.. the last time my mom tried to get a FB acc.. she called me and asked 'How do I go to that facebook page ah? .. Through google?'

Yeap, my online profile is still safe. For now... o.o

P/s: I never thought.. what if Dad is reading this blog O.O ...*Gasp*

Extra class

DAMN YOU. Saturday is the only day that holds me together and now you ask me to GO TO SCHOOL??? GRAAAAWWWWWWWRRRRR!!!!


Kays. Just freaking frustrated. And I'm starting to tune in to life without internet. Digi Facebook helped alot. :D

Out for a swim. Hope it can clear my mind of things. I've been thinking ridiculous stuffs. Not to mention my memories is bugging back to the past. Need some chilling out.

P/s: I'm starting to feel annoyed by my blog song -.-

What about

all the things that makes life worth living?

Well. I'm gonna live for it.

Q: Are you normal?
A: Obviously not.

Well, just a random post.


Breathe deep.. Breathe deep. There is no reason to panic. Problems presented to us, are meant to be solved.

Song of the Night

I took my love down to Violet Hill
There we sat in snow
All that time she was silent still

So if you love me
Won't you let me know?

Been listening to this song on and on for almost the whole night.
Well.. I was out the whole night .. soo its ..
Reachhome->Online few minutes->Bath and toilet buisness -> online again.lol
So yeah.. its considered the whole night. :P

The word of the day for today.
"We all have to make decisions, Just remember we have to live for and with the decisions we made. Cause no matter if its a good or bad decision, we must bare the consequences. Be wise."

P/s:I will be irrationally wise then. =D
P/s/s: Tick Tock Tick Tock .. BOOM!