Times up

2 days to 2010. The fact is, I am not looking forward to next year.. I knw it sounds dumb & foolish, but wat the heck? I thought myself what am I gonna need to deal with next year and without a split second I am beset by anxiety and worries..Some are academics, some are personal goals, some are normal routines, and also not leaving out personal stuffs..next year is gonna be a challenging one(isnt it always?). I've been troubled by this thought for days.. almost a week..which makes me stressed out/depress/emo a lil on times & also insomnia.. lucky I got this blog here to spit out my worries on times or else I could really explode into gazillion pieces.

Okay, felt much better.. Now onto the real stuff :P

2 days ago met up with my 2nd family. That gang of ppl tat went through all sorts of hell & insanity together for the past few years together in scouting. Only one is missing..The now america/malaysian Enjun.. but still He dint get left out, we contacted him via Skype :D

We had an open air steambot this time.. an unique experience and was vry lucky tat it dint rain..After that played card games at around1am. Penalty of loosing was to drink a can of Carlsberg. Well.. sounds easy.. Not for me= =. I am almost zero alcohol resistant.
Pictures followed. Vry few pics cause I was lazy to take..will try to get it soon.
Well, after gulping down a can of Carls my face went srsly red within 10minutes.. then soon I felt my heart pounding really hard.. I can feel it pound.. literally. Still I am not drunk.. its jst my body aint used to beer. Half way through the game, Jason found out that the beer we are drinking had all past the expiry date.. =o= . We're all .. somehow stunned for a few seconds..And its too late cause that time I think he is drinking the last can .. LOL.

Then today, spent some quality with Dad learning to make his banana cake. Reason? Well I just figured next time when I am left alone in home I can at least cook up something for myself instead of the usual packet rice or maggi mee...made 3 cakes.. 1st cake i was still takin my nap, 2nd was observing, 3rd self made :D(with some guidance ofc). Its nt as hard as I figured.. Mix this mix that.. add this add that ... throw it into the oven.. 45minutes later~

Ta-daa!!! :D

At least the I dint bake out a monster cake that comes after my head..

When no one is there to wipe ur tears, I would hold u for a million years.

I knw clearly u wont make up ur mind, But I swear I would do u no wrong.
I am naive, foolish, shallow, simple minded, Never comprehending the complications of relationships.
I falled twice and you came around, Tempting me to risk it Thrice.
You werent in my book when we 1st met, Now ur from the 1st page till the last.
I see sunset in ur eyes.. And I would pursue it with utmost sincerity.
All I need is that u let down ur pride, ur principles, and ur walls, for once.
Just as I did without my self knowing.

-midnight rants-

P/s:Well at least one of my holidays goals accomplished :)
P/s/s:Insomnia-ing again .. wth

I see you?

the Key chain

The above pic is the surprise gift frm a few frens. Actually kinda like it .. and thx for it.. will 'use' it wisely in the future.. :P

A weird case scenario recently that afew of my friends are having relationship problems >.<

Love, softens even the strongest of heart

Love, let it in and you will never want it out

It suffocates and makes it hard to breath

Love, Even the wisest of man cant comprehend it to the fullest

It, brings the best out of an ordinary person
It also brings out the worst...

Love, makes running an extra mile easy
& running another hundred miles alot easier

It, changes a persons principle,
even those they uphold with utmost loyalty

You could never feel more alive than being engulf by it
...or not

Love, it does not hate

It doesnt envy nor jealous

It, turns your world around literally

It breaks and it heals

It changes people, then the world

-love happens-

P/s: Drank alcoholic drink the night before and still felt I'm nt sober yet till midafternoon
P/s/s: and the weather today is just so friggin hot. :(
P/s/s/s: dont get any funny ideas = =

Last year was a mistake

This Year, to save me from tears
I'm giving it to someone who appreciates it.
Seems my body's metabolism had gone totally haywire. Finally took a break and had a slow day .. then took a nap only to end up with Flu and Fever.. >.<

so about my Christmas ...
( its only words with no pics at all so, if ur nt fond of reading do urself a favor & go sit at the corner there :P )

Alarm woke me up in the morning. And I was actually pissed to acknowledge the fact that I was awaken by an alarm clock even during Christmas.. whats worse I already overslept. With haste I bathed, packed my equipments & clothes and rushed of to church for rehearsals. Spent my entire day there working on some finishing touches on my video which I failed to complete the night before although I tried struggling into late night/early dawn and also ran through the full dress rehearsal. I dint perform well during rehearsals with still doing some stupid/careless mistakes. So fingers crossed and hope that I won't screw up at the real deal. Then later in the evening met with a small accident that actually left me a little traumatized.

Later that evening, before everything starts, while doing a last minute check through the church PC suddenly got into a bad mood and decided to restart itself on 2 occasions, where 1 is just before singing carols. Which actually shock the living soul out of me. Said my prayers and crossed my fingers I can only hope the PC wont restart during the drama. Had to blame myself though for reluctance to prepare a back up laptop and put the entire drama at stake. So I had to deal with the fact that the PC might restart without a warning even while playing a video, whats worse my brain start piecing out worst case scenarios which cause my heart to pound like there is no tomoro and left me at the brink of a nervous breakdown through the entire drama. Well .. thankfully everything went well whilst I still did some minor mistakes. After the last video clip finish rolling without a flaw, instead of cheering with the crowd I collapsed back at my chair and took a deep breath... phew.

Thanks Jeff Yap & Sheerah for standing beside through the entire drama guiding and cooling me down ... HAHA :D

Thanks MeiYee/Pui Yeeng/Yi Lin for FFK-ing at the vry last minute just to buy presents & make it a surprise visit while skipping dinner. ;)

Thanks for coming and supporting :)

also, thanks for the presents

25th of the DEC

25th Dec 2009
its One
weird/intense/frustrated/pressured/surprised/close to nervous breakdown

Christmas

May all you ppl wishes come true.. :)
and I might elaborate more on my christmas..depends if I got the inspiration to put the events into words.

P/s: Nobody is to be blame for what happened.. don't worry and many thanks for all of your efforts ;)

Joy to the world..

Christmas eve, this year is way different than the other years I've been through .. celebrating with a small bunch of friends.. instead of the usual of attending church Midnight service. Had countdown at the most unexpected place ever.. that no normal ppl in their right mind will think of.. LOL.

Guess where is this

'Christmas with AhBeng' tomoro and my Christmas is all about rehearsals in church. From morning till evening and night will be the event it self.. Gee.. cant I spend some time with family or frens during Christmas?? Not so happy about the way I'm celebrating my Christmas to be honest. Yet still, duty and responsibility have to come 1st.. above all.

As for a wish list..well .. 1 thing is I wished for a more normal sleeping habit.. and ofc a few more things that will be of my utmost secret :P

as for now.. signing off at... *look below*

its AM .. screw it

P/s: Merry Christmas :)

Somewhereeee over the rainboooowww~

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
And the dreams that you've dreamed of
Once in a lullaby.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly,
And the dreams that you've dreamed of
Dreams really do come true.

Someday i'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melts like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly.
And the dreams that you dare to..
Oh why, oh why can't i?

Well, i see
Trees of green and red roses too,
I'll watch them bloom for me and you
And i think to myself,
What a wonderful world.

Well i see,
Skies of blues and, clouds of white,
And the brightness of day, i like the dark
And i think to myself,
What a wonderful world.

The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people passing by
I see friends shaking hands saying how do you do
They're really saying i... I love you.

I hear babies cry, i watch them grow
They'll learn much more than really know
And i think to myself
What a wonderful world.

Someday i'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
And the dreams that you dare to
Oh why, oh why can't i?
This song brings in the lullably feeling =D

anyhow, went for Christmas shopping today with Melvin, WaiSoon, WaiHau, WaiLoon and Mark. I was there aimlessly cause don't knw what to buy and even worse don't knw who to giv cause theres too much ppl i am serious on giving presents.= =|| Still hav loads of ideas and inspirations but I guess it will applied in the future :P
Still found this interesting scene.

Piles and endless Piles of..

Taking this photo with risk cause theres cctv there and taking photos of their products are not allowed.
Christmas dinner, Christmas drama, gathering with my bros .. thats it I'm still busy >.<


P/s: It's all about finding the right key for the right door and opening it at the right moment to a world of infinite possibilities and wonders. It's that complicated...

Retardation on the Rise

An appetizer for this post..A natural retardated shot.. i wasnt aware of whats happening.. = ="

Had to admit.. nice shot >.<
(cameragirl:HXY)

Watched avatar today.. I like this movies effects and all its detailed graphics.. simply breathtaking. Oh btw its Director is JamesCameron*wink* :P
Christmas is nearing..and I finally got my haircut.. which looks a little weird on me...
and the below post will be a short summary for this year.
(you can jst skip through it all if ur lazy of reading)

One things for sure, this year's beginning till midyear has been vry challenging and could be said as one of my lowest point in life. Thanks to all the sudden changes which caught me by surprise & unprepared with also my complete failure at pursuing one of my dreams jst made things a hell lot worse. Still, A handful of close friends tht knw me for years was there to catch me. They dint say much , all they did was spend time with me and hang out together, occasionally playing basketball.. watch movie... which is more than enough. Mid year passed and I enter a new phase of life meeting new peoples and new friends.. also bid goodbye to a brother of mine that had flown to America. However, things started to recover, and soon I got my life back on track.. well a little. Highlights will definitely be during the year end 6th form night presentation where me and my classmates toiled hard for one whole week for the performance..although it was nt that fascinating .. but still frm there I felt as if I'm alive again. Its hard to explain.. but just take it this way.. All the greys and glooms was consumed by blossoming colors and breathtaking scenery. Thanks guys.. even some of you are 982676887366823 x miles away, you still went through all the high and lows with me without an utter complaint.

:)

Clicked on the "love quote of the day" at FB out of fun .. and I got this quote

'to the left where nothing's right or to the right where nothing's left'

It rhymes vry nicely XD

P/s: I hate Christmas sometimes cause it reminds me Holidays is over soon = =||