Sinfully taxing

nausea, headache, delirious .. bah screw this physical/mental taxing life.

After my 1st week of school *check pulse*.. oh good, i'm still alive.
My 1st week at school end up quite well actually. Wel, "quite well" if forgetting the fact that I have 2 essays(1 due Monday), 10++ PS graphs, some math exercise, some physics exercise, some chemistry exercise, a small test on Monday & for some reasons waking up even before the alarm rings every single day(and i dnt knw how i did it= =). Yeah. Hell on earth. So damn pressured btw .. :(

What am I complaining anyway, most likely there are many more insane people(a.k.a nerds*no offece* :P) out there facing even worst odds and still havent even shivered one bit & still grinning widely cause being blessed with so 'few' homework.

A glimpse of the past. Blurry images yet still clear marks on my life paintings. I will never forget.

And things now are far too familiar with what was before. Time to abscond, leaving everything behind. Its not worth it. It never did, all but of a statistically error. The heart had failed to convince the rationality that things will get better. Let it rain, let the thunder roar, I faced worst, & I am holding my ground. Cooled my head, Closed my eyes, Shut downed the soul within. Time to clear my mind. The road ahead aint easy..full of thorns and broken glass. Definitely there are fears, but I;m gonna face it head on. no more great escapes.
somehow, nothing is okay recently .. & to think a new year is a new opportunity to right all the wrongs.

P/s:Wake up dude, time to face reality. It hurts but its always better than lying to urself.

Random photo session

Last thing I should be doing right now. Thats sitting right here blogging & msn-ing.Decided to close my book & came here to blog to chill awhile.

3 days into school and I felt as if I lost my soul. LOL..I know I am exaggerating..but yeah, I hate this routine.. having to wake up even before the sun rises..is just so wrong!!! Had a random photo session that day before meeting with the Usst-ians. Was quite fun .. we all love the cameras XD
Pictures followed~

爱"笑"组 :P
gee.. we look serious huh? Like very unfriendly..
2nd pose
Well actually .. we are all friendly people, see? we smiled!!!
Cert phobia!!!
The Boys
Behold!! The President!! AHAHA
my life might be in danger for posting this pic.. as usual..:P

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Well I can't explain why it's not enough, Cause I gave it all to you.
And if you leave me now, oh just leave me now.
It's the better thing to do,
It's time to surrender,
It's been to long pretending.
Theres no use in trying,
When the pieces don't fit anymore, Pieces don't fit here anymore
"Pieces don't fit anymore-James Morrison"

Heard this song while I was doing homework & somehow it reminisced me on afew things of the past. Probably what I really wanted, is all along in my past. But I guess its no longer something worth hoping for. The pieces don't fit anymore.. let it remained broken. A new one will come take its place.

Kays, rested my mind, pulled myself together. Now time to resume running!!!


P/s: Time table still in progress =_________________________=

Carpe Diem

in Latin, it means 'Seize the day'

At 1st I wasnt, but now I did. Life as usual :D

1st day of school. Morning I woke up earlier than the alarm. The weather was cold.. really really cold.. and the sky is dark & havin slight rains.. its like a gloom doom atmosphere & Im nt that happy either nor havin a peace of mind. Reached school & had my 1st problems with the school authorities. Seems my fringe is too long & I was warned to have it cut off by tomoro, which I did!!! Other than that things were actually quite smooth and I did enjoy my day :) . My chem teacher this year is no longer Pn.Sim. Its now Mr.Hee!!! Well, theres hope for my Chem now! :D Also had the same class this year.. yeah the one stuck in the corner of the school.. like a bunch of outcast= =. And my class pupils has shrunk from around 25strong last year May to 16 people only. Its jst soo quiet .. sooo dead.. >.< well at least the boys are still noisy at times.

Well this year.. I am definitely gonna work hard & in class thats mean I'm gonna be a friggin nerd = =||, laugh all u want, I dont giv a crap bout it.Enough slacking, procrastination, blind dreams. Its time I really put my mind into it. I've screwed up last year.. BAD.. & this year I had to work up harder to cover last year mistakes. Nonetheless, its time to turn things around..yesterday will make you stronger.

New year resolution?
hmm well.
1) get decent grades
2) get a dslr(hope so)
3) no CAR CRASHES(like seriously..I knw I shud drive more carefully)
4) swimming :D
5) get an owner for the keychain.(we'll see how, Nt likely gonna happen)



P/s: Now, where was I? oh yeah.. making a timetable.. :P

Goodbyeee HOLIDAYS!!!

Woke up today morning by a weird dream .. like.. seriously weird.. and nonetheless scary. Guess returning to school pressure is hitting me .. oh well. Spent most of my morning sitting at my study desk trying to sketch out my goals for this year and also a timetable(its 1st time in life where I actually make a timetable for my own personal life *proud* :P) and where do I want to see myself at the end of this year. Well, the timetable havent materialize yet.. but rest assured its not procrastination!!! Duh, figured myself since when did I want to get so organized.. or became an organized freak.

One things for sure.. I am turning down on my rational side..almost every side of it. Entering Form 6 itself is already rejecting the rational & the common sense within me. Nevermind that, following my heart&intuition for once wont hurt..right? Besides, I have full confidence that I can survive Form 6 pretty well.. which all I gotta do is put my mind into it & stop slacking. Well, the slacking part definitely not gonna be easy :P

Spent the rest of my day rotting at home and also browse through some funny demotivate™ photos.. which is actually for some reason.. depressing ..= = (dont bother asking why CAUSE I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW DID IT HAPPEN). Probably I'm not taking loneliness that good anymore.. lol. Enjoy the pics~

If any of you are figuring why all the frequent update of sudden .. well thats probably due to the coming days I most likely wont be active in the internet realm anymore. Well.. I hope its real .. shud spent more time facing the books than facebook/blog/msn/whatever...
I know i am gonna miss you ... ALOT when school starts.
And I felt like shit even thinking bout me gonna miss you
And I know the feelings is not mutual
still, thanks for making me so alive for the past few weeks
Though I know ur not smart enough to see this :P
P/s: Packed my bags, got my shoes, cleaned my desk.. I am gonna take you seriously 2010.. no more the usual jolly go around me.
P/s/s: I know i've been ranting alot lately... dont worry.. I will do that alot less after school starts :)
P/s/s/s: Enjoy Schooling to all fellow students!! ToT

Twenty Ten

Reluctantly, I've immersed myself into this year.. with a heavy heart of leaving December behind. For oh to many reasons I would hope My December last year never ends. But, as humans, we are all bound to the laws of time & nature. Time, is inevitable.. U can't escape it. Twenty Ten, better treat me better than Twenty ZeroNine or I'll ask Enjun's snowball to bite you ..HAHA

Kays, ranting aside. Started my New year by indulging myself with some appropriate rest. But still.. after only 10hours of sleep (which is nt enuf) I was dragged of by Mom to Tesco to get my pens/pencil and other stuffs for school. A simple shopping for stationery turns into a restock of my house food supply.. = =" dont even want to ask how it happened.

2 more days.. and my life will take place here.

School.. Nvr thought that I once miss this place = =||

It's all about finding the right key for the right door and opening it at the right moment to a world of infinite possibilities and wonders.. simple to say .. precision.

Of sorrow and laughters.. it makes it all right :)

Long post ahead, PROCEED WITH CAUTION

Flashing back ~~~~

The 1st quarter of this year was .. somewhat .. the most drastic changes ever happened.
Was occupied at Work.. non-stop work during Jan & Feb. Then met up with a near death experience in a car accident just 2 weeks before my driving test. I still remember all of us standing under the rain.. shocked stunned.. and I still hold my breathe once awhile thinking back I've live through it.

During March I was busy preparing and helping out in my church organized 'Kidsgame' which is mainly for kids. Also at the end of that month.. I made a terrible move/mistake to a person thats really costly & jeopardized our friendship. I was really foolish back then.. & I am really sorry, really hope we can be friends again like we used to. March, was without a doubt the turning point of this year.. cause jst too many things happened, I was simply overwhelmed & disappointed with myself. Cause of the sudden changes.. I was rendered lifeless for a following few months & also passionless..It was as if my living world has turned black and white.

Then during April I was cherished an opportunity to take a break from everything & escape to HongKong with my mom and her friend. Had an insane shopping spree there @.@. Also spent time with my brothers and also was in a dilemma to choose where to study.

During May.. I entered into Form 6. Which is a last minute decision & I remember I whispered to myself that I will take another few months to consider before leaving next year. Little did I knw.. it dint materealize.

Celebrated my bday during June and also got sick for almost 2 weeks..with occasion got better today then sick again tomoro.

On July, Grandma passed away on the very night my school band got Champion for their state competition. Also, bid goodbye to Enjun that had further his studies in America. Bro, still remember the surprise we gave you?? HAHA... It was a memorable experience. ;) Nt forsaking, also had our vry 1st class outing that month and every1 enjoyed themselves. And ofc, got myself into Usst. At that time, I felt weird getting into there.. not knowing practically any1 there.

August, I trashed my Wira hardcore leaving it to be fixed for 3 months. Also got my new saga which was confirmed during July..& had our class's 2nd outing. Then at the end of the month.. attended my church's family camp. August will forever leave a mark in my life..to never drive fast at sharp corners.. xD.

September swoops in and also marks another month of tight schedules and no rest policy. Class practice gotten intense and tensions among classmates had risen to the breaking point with the clash of ideas & also different view points for out 6th form night performance. Also, Melvin broke his leg that month .. and he can't walk for a month. An unexpected tragedy.

October a.k.a the season of exams.. where ppl are havin PMR, studyin for Stpm/spm & also trials. Thus that month being quite dull & lifeless as most of my time I've spent locking myself in my room .. studying. However after exam, without taking a break, I was immediately thrown into a world of pain, preparing for the 6th form night... a non-stop labour for one whole week, day and night.

As November sets in, I was asked to do a small part of our class presentation. Speaking to a crowd is not that hard...all u need is preparation & a cool head. Also went to Pangkor to survey campsite for the usst camp & was occupied making preparations for the Usst camp. With no doubt, I would say that I've got back on my feet & started running .. totally leaving behind the past.. where it should be.. BEHIND.

December started off with the Usst camp.. which I considered it as a success cause everything went quite smoothly. Camp was fun.. and not to mention tiring. Also get to knw the fellow usst excos better. Also December is full of colours and fun :) (yumcha, basketball, outings .. & so on) Was also occupied with the Christmas drama my church organized. Also not to mention, met with a small accident, thx to my phone ringing at the wrong moment.

This year's lost.. was the greatest
yet, this year's gains..was also the greatest
This year, I experienced what is like being alone
Nonetheless, I survived & gotten much more independent
Let life be as it should be, full of surprises, full of mysteries
Shit happens even we least needed it
But live on with life.. for in time things will get better.
I found 'Ms.Right'.. its the vry one piece of puzzle tht fits perfectly into the picture.Oh well.. what next?

it's been one heck of a rollercoaster ride, & its time to say goodbye.Next year will be a better one, I'm sure of it.

Remnants of 2009

The usual simple minded me, running from the inevitable

time , responsibility & ....

Celebrated 2 of my friends birthday yesterday.. which means 2 birthday cake in one day. 1st was fellow usst-ian Yong Kar leng a.k.a Pn.Tsia. Don't even mind asking whats her age..ahahaha.

had the biggest k-box room in the entire Jusco (i think).

u can see tht she is happy/shocked/whatever

(psst, cause the cake vry big mar..:P)

Then after singing for a few hours went straight for Melvin's bday. Yeap he had waited a long long time for this .. bet he yelled to himself that he is finally legal ..XD

the cake is too small, so he dint smile widely..oh well..life aint fair :P

P/s:blah .. so much for now.. Long post might coming soon.. get ur specs and eyemore ready.