1.2.10

Its a record for abandoning my blog THIS LONG. its like 4 or 5 days?? No friggin idea. Stopped myself from going online for one whole day yesterday and I succeeded!! *proud* My life recently is actually a mix.. interesting yet at the same time dull. So yeah.. its hot n cold.

No pics, No stories, No 'attempts on poems' for now.

This is just a short announcement that this blog is still active and mischievous.

Epic F...

2 words to describe today

EPIC FAIL!!!

Reason?
Came home, got a slight fever.. took a nap at 6pm .. woke up at 12.30am ..1alarm, 6sms, 2miss calls(phone was not in silent mode) failed to wake me up.
Its almost 1am.. I am feeling hyper...shit.

Blah.. homework, proposal, revisions ... damn I don't want to stay up all night ar!!!
On the bright side.. another personal record. Just being sarcastic.. this had nothing to be proud off. Sigh.


Undeniably I was somehow shaken.
A midst of the holocaust it creates a stronger person
The winter's cruel blizzard wasn't easy
Neither is the spring's petals any tender

P/s: 3 words. I need timeout. @.@

Spring will come, after the Winter

Well .. kinda think of it.. it was an awesome weekend I went through. Meet back childhood frens, Had awesome food, had 1st experience driving on the highway, attended a concert by a 2 times Grammy nominations piano artist and so on.

Went to Priscilla's house on Sunday .. was sorta a like a small reunion. Well.. I really liked her house's TV set. DAMN IT IS HUGE!!! OMG!! If it falls over me it could make me splat flat on the groud!!!. Dint take pictures of it though.. dnt think she will let me post up photos of it up on here either..xD
Also .. had my 1st time driving experience on the highway..yeah .. after getting my license for so long.. I finally got the opportunity to drive on the highway. Wined down the window and let the wind brushes me at 110km/h .. ahh blissful indeed!! :D However on the way back home I almost went to the wrong way .. which could really cause me to end up in Penang.. or KL .. O.O. Thx Junie for giving the early warning.. I would really just rush into the toll if I wasnt told that might be the wrong way =.= and eventually get myself into an unwanted misadventure.

Blah, 1st time highway dint drive vry fast la.. jst drive 10km/h over the normals speed.

At night attended Enoch Fernando(I still like to call him Ferdinand!! Hmph!!) concert at YMCA. I got the front row seat. Wait no.. its infront of the the front row seat..HAHA. Reason? Operate the projector for him >.<. I recalled getting from him. his song/video flow for the night only to find out that he scratched almost everything from the original plan while on stage and just became spontaneous. Really kept me on my toes.. I couldnt even let myself slack for a moment =.= My favorite moment that night will definitely be when he solo out one of my favorite music.. "close to you" and the crowd hummed & sing along with the melody...was an awesome atmosphere.

Picture by Daniel, I was too occupied to take any

4th week. I am getting the hang of it.. previous weeks my body was probably unable to synchronize with the new routine. January ends soon.. ushering in the 2nd month. Thus .. the increase of workloads is expected not to mention its gonna be taxing mentally & physically.

Initials at the side of my spec. C=Chang..'surname' :P

You cannot judge a tree, or a person,
by only one season,
and that the essence of who they are
and the pleasure, joy, and love
that come from that life
can only be measured at the end,
when all the seasons are up.

If you give up when it's winter,
You will miss the promise of you spring,
the beauty of your summer,
fulfillment of your fall...
*taken from school magazine*

P/s: Is there more to life than just studying & homework for this year?

Far Awayyyyy~

Verse1
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know

Chorus
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never gp
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

Verse2
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know, you know, you know

So far away Been far away for far too long
So far away Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

Bridge
I wanted I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed I need to hear you say
That I love you I have loved you all along
And I forgive you For being away for far too long
So keep breathing 'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing 'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing Hold on to me and, never let me go

Bumped on this song while I was checking back my old files & been listening to it over & over again.. xD. Will put it up on my blog asap ..since mixpode is experiencing server problems at the moment.

Well.. today was whole day on the go again. Day School, Night Church. Reached home half dead only to remind myself tomoro is gonna be the same shit. Ahh Wth!!! My weekends are even busier than school days! ><"
also
In need of inspiration for various things.
The upside of this week? That it is raining.. making the weather cooling and comfy :)

Pictures followed.
Steambot with family certainly did cheer me up a little.. after a very disturbing week :)

It's in AM again..I should really stop this kinda daredevil act. The side effects is chewing me up alive.

P/s: At this rate .. its just a matter of time before I...

Doubt?

I'm not fond the way things are going to be truthful.
Just when I thought I foresee a smooth ride, things got bumpy & tough.

3rd week into school and I'm doubting if I could handle it. Things werent as easy as I figured. There is just so much to do.. so little time. Homework, revisions, also .. need to spend time to clear my head to plan for kolokium & xinxuan..which thus far.. I FAILED to do so, makes me felt so irresponsible. I'm bad at multitasking. Getting stressed, uneasy, uncomfortable, anxious. Added up.. Muet is just months away.. I havent even made any real effort to improve my English & I recalled vividly I told myself to aim for Band6 last year.. with unshaken confidence yet, now beset with doubt. That explains my recent bad/aggressive attitude. I need to find an activity or something to blow off some steam.

It's so much like trying to keep a sinking ship afloat.. trying to hold my world together from falling apart. Where was the dedicated value I picked up last time? Time to instill it into me once more.

Still, had to say.. its those little laughing & retard moments that are keeping me sane. That is why I hate being alone during this period of time.

P/s: this is jst the small fraction of the ppl responsible for keeping me sane :)

If you want the rainbow, you must put up with the rain
D. Parton (photo by : Enjun)

*add-on at 11pm 21-1-10*
Also .. the recent news of the Penang Dragon boat capsized. One of them is a scout.. not just any scout... He is the troop leader of ChungLing scout. Its sad to see a fine person perish due to avoidable accidents..his family&friends must be devastated by this. My utmost condolence to them.

also

Mentos, ur friendly mental energizer in a package!!
Get a pack now for only Rm2 and ur mental awareness will guaranteed!!
Beware! over consumption might lead to problems like diet bates & also.. *u guess*

popping Mentos like crazy jst to keep myself awake. Blah.

P/s:The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong-Mahatma Gandhi.

A trip to the principle Office.

Current status : K.I.A(killed in action)

Reason of death:*kindly refer to the picture below*

The real culprit are the TEACHERS!!!

Anyways. Did an experiment to see if Coke can keep me awake. Well .. it does keep me fresh.. but at a cost. I have to bear with stomach ache the following day.. thx to late night coke =.=||. Well don't even knw whether tatsthe reason anot. Still having minor stomach ache.. wth. Anyhow.. still prefer coffee instead.

Behold!!!

Also today, was sent to the Headmaster's office. Reason? Skipped extra class during the Hols. Yes, I did it intentionally.. cmon its holidays!! And I refuse to attend those class >.<. Well, Of course I'm scared. My hands were practically ice-cold during the entire physics period. My hands does get ice-cold when I'm scared. tick tock tick tock.. 10am. So I begun my journey to the principles office along side 4 friends. My heart werent pounding.. neither am I shivering ... I was vry calm infact.. jst that my hands are really really cold. I even tried rubbing it for heat =.= Anyhow.. my thoughts werent helping me either by creating all sorts of worst case scenario. I imagined horrible HORRIBLE stuffs that could happen!! Reached principles office and I was ecstatic to find that there are dozen more students there. Well.. at least I and the other 3 werent the only ones. Was quite surprised actually that headmaster handled it pretty maturely. In my mind.. I pictured him yelling and throwing stuffs or asking discipline teacher to whack the living soul out of us. Anyhow.. all he did was gave us some advice...well actually its more to a lecture. A long one. >.<

Also.. made me skip recess!! .. grhhh

P/s: I foresee homework phobia syndrome.

Magic Thread

Peter, a boy who is strong and able, yet flawed by an attitude of impatience. Always dissatisfied with his present condition, Peter spends his life daydreaming about the future.

One day while wandering in the forest, Peter meets a strange old woman who gives him a most tantalizing opportunity - the chance to skip the dull, mundane moments of life. She hands Peter a silver ball from which a tiny gold thread protrudes. "This is your life thread," she explains. "Do not touch it and time will pass normally. But if you wish time to pass more quickly, you have to only to pull the thread a little way and an hour will pass like a second. But I warn you, once the thread has been pulled out, it cannot be pushed back in again."

This magical thread seems the answer to all of Peter's problems. It is just what he has always wanted. He takes the ball and runs home.

The following day in school, Peter has his first opportunity to put the silver ball to use. The lesson was dragging, and the teacher scolds Peter for not concentrating. Peter fingers the silver ball and gives the thread a slight tug. Suddenly the teacher dismisses the class , and Peter is free to leave school. He is overjoyed! How easy his life will now be. From this moment, Peter begins to pull the thread a little every day.

But soon Peter begins to use the magic thread to rush through large portions of life. Why waste time pulling the thread just a little every day when he can pull it hard and complete school altogether? He does so and finds himself out of school and apprenticed in a trade. Peter uses the same technique to rush through his engagement to his sweetheart. He cannot bear to wait months to marry her , so he uses the silver thread to hasten the arrival of his wedding day.

Peter continues this pattern throughout his life. When hard , trying times come, he escapes them with his magic thread. When the baby cries at night, when he faces financial struggles, when he wishes his own children to be launched in careers of their own, Peter pulls the magic thread and bypasses the discomfort of the moment.

But sadly, when he comes to the end of his life, Peter realizes the emptiness of such an existence. By allowing impatience and discontentment to rule him, Peter has robbed himself of life's richest moments and memories. With only the grave to look forward to, he deeply regrets ever having to use the magic thread.

Don't rush through life, instead enjoy every single drop of it.

Chinese New year is around the corner & this year is a special one. Most ppl will knw why. Can't wait to meet up with my relatives .. dint get to meet them last year... also Dad is making CNY cookies..woo-hoo!!! On the other hand.. gonna get mocked by this phrase for sure.."eat & grow fat" .. blah dnt giv a damn! CNY!! I gonna eat my heart out!! =P

Mandarin Oranges

P/s: Just realized my parents age is exactly the same with my scout troop.. Weird coincidence.. really weird.