An unaffordable screw up

1st off... u must be thinking I am freed of all my burdens and responsible for a while lately.. well.. u are DEAD WRONG. A crisis shocked up on Friday, almost cause me to lost it and panic. Well, the crisis is school society related.. and I am responsible for these problems that occured. It could be said that I was given the wrong information or unclear information of how things work, but I am still responsible for it as I am assigned that task. Anyhow the mistakes is done, which already made me felt bad.. whats worse is that others need to help me to cover up my mistake, sacrificing rest, playtime, bbq time :P. I hated the fact that I need others to help me cover up my mistake, but as for this case I am well aware that I can't do it all alone because of the time factor and the amount of work that needs to be rushed, thus a million billion thanks to those who gratefully offered their help!!! :)
(if u dun und what I'm ranting about leave it be, cause only afew can fully und)

However.. things are still not complete.. and there are still problems unsolved.. sigh.

Well.. aside from that, I am finally leaving this town for a couple of days. Gonna be going to Pangkor to survey campsite and at the meantime.. get some much needed r&r. I find it pretty weird that I've been going to Pangkor frequently this few years.. and they are mostly camp related.. coincidence? >.<.

~Pangkor Beach~
Missing this kind of scenery

Okay.. I know I havent post up the pictures from my class drama..well I havent manage to get it from my classmates yet.. >.< soo .. stay tuned :P


Gonna end with this pic+quote. enjoy~

the burden of the snow, creates inevitable beauty

P/s: PANGKOR!! HERE I COMEEEEEE... :D

Soft Spot?

Put me in a small group with all of my best buddies.
And I can speak loud and wide, ranging from world issues to crapping about laughing maniacs conquering the known universe.

Put me in a small group with nobody that I really know.
And I will be the quiet and only speak when its necessary or when opinion is needed.

Put me in a large group with everyone that I know well.
And I might speak artfully, commanding attention.

Put me in a room of 200 people with majority of them are total strangers to me.*gasp
Well.. let's see what will happen tomorrow.



I know that to some, or most peoples my age, speaking infront of a large crowd aint a problem nor is it an issue at all. Its a different story for me however. Guess being outspoken and charismatic isnt one of my traits yet. But yeah, as a friend had shared to me, these traits are nurtured and trained step by step. Today was supposed to do a presentation for my class. However due to some technical issues its postponed to tomorrow. CRAP.

To put this in another perspective, in a Christian perspective to be exact. This is definitely one of those times God has pushed me out of my comfort zones and wants me to have an upgrade, if not a few.

From past experience, I did perform dramas in front of crowds..on occasions hundreds of them. However, doing a presentation is a whole different matter. I remember clearly one of my habits while speaking out loud is to get choked half way.. lost of words or even spit out 'Uhh' or 'Erm' . Well, this is unacceptable to me. Let's hope tomorrow I wont choke and panic. To make matters worse, I don't really understand what am I suppose to present. God bless me.. LOL.

*gasp again :P

well, most of them arent paying attention anyways

Putting aside the facing crowds crisis, I am also facing some problems at my class. My Chem teacher has been of bad mood lately cause of some stupid reasons. Rampaging through the class scolding almost everyone, I can only barely escape. My 'beloved'(*vomits) chem teacher also had changed target from Melvin to Me a week ago thanks to my epic fail in Chem and poor attendance. Well, thanks to my classmates giving me the early warning, I had been a frigging good boy during Chem periods. Sitting there starring at the board/teacher, not sleeping.. not even moving at all.It may seems I am paying unrivaled concentration, however looks can be deceiving. I tried hard, like really hard to comprehend what she is trying to teach us.. yet all in vain. GAH.. guess I really have to study Chem on my own.

So much for now.



P/s:What if? I open that locked door and let you in one more time? Fear of a heartbreak has dealt a toll on me and I still couldn't forgive myself for letting you in my life years ago.

Short Replay

Finally got the video of our class drama out and playing .. changed its format which further worsen its already suck-ish quality. Its not much... spoiled lights at the end make it unable to see anything. Thanks JasonSoon for helping me to hold the v-cam :)

As said.. its not really good quality and the guy responsible for the lightings screwed up the front part.. Idiot. He was given clear orders to not show any damn lights for this sketch.

SummerLove, its all but a fabric of immagination. Never meant to be.

Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing
Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everythings okay
And finally now, believing

So maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
Maybe, I want you back into my life.
Maybe I am waiting for that someone right
Maybe I don't know the best is you
Maybe I am busy forgetting that I forget to remember the best memories.
P/s: Colours are BACK :)

Postponed r&r

Yesterday night, I was making arrangements and also a list of stuffs to finish off before leaving to pangkor for the weekend. In the midst of it.. at facebook a usst exco wrote on her status with 2 words that stand out most 'Pangkor Postponed' =_______= grhh was really looking forward to it.. although I'm going with a bunch of ppl that I dont really know much of and its not really for recreation purposes, I was looking forward to it somehow.. a desire to escape this town for a few days.
Holiday is not as free as I thought, after thinking through yesterday night.. I realize this could be one of my busiest holidays. Stuffs to do includes a thoroughly revision on this year's studies, finish encoding church camp's videos(which its already late-.-), usst camp, and so on.
And
Failed to force myself back to studies after finals. I am either wandering, day-dreaming, thinking about something else in class or even doing my own stuffs for example, sleeping = =||. The only thing that is really bugging me atm is this:

Translation:"Ei, start printing me certs u printing machine"

Over heard there is 90 certs that is required to be printed because of 6th form night, ouch!. O.O And gonna be busy with usst camp pretty soon, not to mention church ministry.

Fooling around in KarHean's car
Colours will be back on the next post, mayb

P/s:When people lied to you the 1st time and promised not to do it again, they already lied to you twice.

Colours

Once he braved himself, giving all out doing everything, oblivious to what he might loose. He swam, He climbed, He ran, He challenged himself to go further more. Believing in himself that a man dedicated to his goals will get it. Be it hell or high seas, he went through it all.. just to find his dreams vaporized. The moment when he realize he had chased an unworthy tale, he has only himself left to loose. Turning back wasn't an option, waking ahead he couldn't bear the pain. So he break off and went to a completely different route. Giving life another chance to surprise him.
Sunday went to Kevin's house to play Nitendo Wii. Which consider as a timeout after a hectic weak preparing for 6th Form night :) . I failed hard at tennis 'worst compared to Neo = =' however fair quite well at baseball, scoring 2 homeruns :P . The Wii experience caused my arms unable to function properly the next 2 day .. and till today I'm still feeling some side effects = =||. Remember my 1st Nitendo Wii experience at Jeff's house.. we played almost through the night and at the next day.. I was unable to hold a fork and knife without my hands shaking. >.<

Pictures followed, some are random pics taken within these few days. Havent got pictures of my class presentation , so I might be posting it a few days later.

The Wii Experience
Found this miniature plane under my bed O.O
sleeping in class
went to 'Big Tree Leg' again today :P

P/s: Black and white.. its been like these for sometime.. when will the colours be back?

Chinese Tag.. great..

1. 我的大名：JAMES
2. 我的生日：22-06-1991
3. 誰傳給你的：Desmond
4. 說出五個好朋友：Enjun,WaiHau,Melvin,BooYeong,Desmond,*Other scout bros.. :P
5. 生日想要得到什麼禮物：Ask me again if u can afford to fork out Rm4k
6. 近期開心的是：6th Form Night :D
7. 近期壓力大的是：Its Personal
8. 未來想做什麼：Movie Director, Full/Part time youth pastor, Businessman, IT specialist
9. 有沒有喜歡的人：I guess so..
10. 同學會要回去找老師嗎:why not?
11. 跟誰出去最幸福：我的好朋友
12. 如果你的兩個好友吵架了:Tell them its not worth jeopardizing their friendship.
13. 跟情人出去最想去哪:Beach, Park, Cinema, yaadi-yaada
14. 聖誕節要做啥:Listen to carols? = =
15. 最想跟誰過聖誕節:Santa Claus?
16. 有沒有床气：Think so
17. 有幾個兄弟姐妹:0
18. 最喜歡的一首歌(女生的)：KellyClarkson-Save you
19. 最喜歡的一首歌(男生的)：BoysLikeGirls-Love Drunk
20. 喜歡什麼顏色：Red/Black/White
21. 上廁所會不會先沖水：why do u need to know?
22. 愛不愛我:What the?
23. 喜歡男生還是女生：女生
24. 最想大聲說什麼：No words actually.. I just want to scream
25. 半夜敢不敢自己上廁所：Me? Sure.. how bout U? :P
26. 上廁所會不會脫褲褲：= =||
27. 誰很欠打:the person that invented tag? *jking :P
28. 現在很迷什麼：hmm ... no idea
29. 睡相很差:on occasions...
30. 現在的時間：7pm
31. 是否痛恨傳給你點卷的人：nope...
32. 體重多少：65kg +/- *I dont remember
33. 今天天氣：Damn hot
34. 你懷孕了嗎: Do u think i can say yes?
35. 你若中樂透最想做什么：Dont und la! ToT
36. 大學生一定要玩的活動: Basketball & Rugby
37. 如果能為彩虹添加一種顏色：Its perfect as it is.
38. 你覺得自己性格怎樣：( u knw the answer )

【點名單】
没有人 :P

P/s:Next time.. at least give me simplified Chinese >.<

Loyalty.Dedication.Merit

If ur asking why did I put that 3 words up on my title post, well read my post. You will understand completely, and be warned, its a LONG POST :P

What do you get if you merge 'Beauty & The Beast' with L6F4??
You get 'Beauty & The Beast' going to a beach party with MichaelJackson dancing there! :P

6th Form Night. Starting from the beginning of our preparation, which is exactly 1 week before 6th form night. As for me, I only get to know about the plan to change the drama on Sunday. I still remember when the decision was made, it was Sunday morning and I am seriously blur during that time thanks to a few hours of sleep the night before. What happen to be a simple suggestion, turned out to be the main idea of the drama. After we drew out the main plan, my classmates literally practiced day and night, all were so motivated to give it all, to go all out, and nonetheless everyone made sacrifices. Their degree of cooperation, I've only ever witnessed during my scouting days and years serving in HM(history makers). I am still jaw dropping awe-ed and dumb-founded whenever I think back through the 1 week we went through together. We practiced whenever we can find time in class, made plans for practices ahead, exchanged ideas at anytime possible and came to school for practice till late night. I could still remember the joy at 1st when we test the UV lights and the effect was way much better than I anticipated. Before that I was still doubting whether will the effect even work.

Nonetheless, practice intensified as Saturday closed in on us. I too, suffered insomnia for a few days due to the fear of unable to finish everything on time and make a fool of ourselves on Sat night. At 6th Form Night itself I was tremendously stressed out. And after witnessing the performance of other classes I was discouraged cause ours is just too simple and short compared to the others with sophisticate choreographed group dance and a long performance. The moment of truth came when we performed. There were glitches and problems with the hardware, however the performers did their job with perfection. Everyone did exactly what they were suppose to. The crowd's cheer rocked the hall supporting us all the way, the hall went dark with only lights from the UV bulbs, and we had fun. Words and grammar can't describe the joy I felt, all the pain, weariness, pressures, are all utterly forgotten and Its the best feeling that I ever had this year.None of this could had happened if it wasn't for everybody playing their role and being responsible. And of course, there were funny moments through the process, for example the 3 dancers popped in red bull just before the dance to make them high..lol. I hav more to write, more to tell about this chapter of my life. But probably you guys will be fed up by now after reading so much. So I will stop here, and this will forever be an unforgettable chapter of my life. Its just like living in a dream.

Pictures followed. Not much..Cause most are still with my classmates. Might post some up in later post.

I can only find one of this effects that were done
*pics from wailoon and this is done during one of our rehearsals
Our class's MJ xD
Scout Brothers in Semi-Formal xD
*there are missing family members though :(
decided to try on Poh's hat, kinda weird on me = =

If only one person could be with me that night.
P/s: Great Job guys... :)

Living, not Surviving

Been insanely busy lately. Just at Tuesday it self, went school then stay back for practice until 4pm. Then 7.30pm go school again and practice till 10pm. Practicing till our ass break just so we can present a decent show at Wednesday's rehearsal and won't be disqualified. Well, the show we presented was a little of a mess, things dint go as planned but the supervising teacher, who were actually pissed off at our class for not attending the Monday rehearsal qualified us, and told us she is looking forward to see us present our drama. As like many other classes, ours have a surprises well installed to awe the crowds and also the competition. If things goes as planned, it should be a good short sketch. If all hell broke loose.. well at least we gave our best.

A sneak peak of our practice

AND NOW! 21/10/91

You are that insane guy that screams along side with me in my car at outside people

You are that guy that always makes weird sounds at the most unexpected moments
You are that good friend that always brings me up when I fall
You are always there to listen when I need an ear
You are the one person that knows nearly all of my secrets
You are the 1st person responsible for my 1st near death experience :P
You are the one person on earth that don't mind being called... XXXXX >)
You are definitely the closes to a brother that I could ever have(cause I dont have one)

HAPPY 18th BDAY CHOONG EN JUN!!! :)

The old days.... HAHA

Other than that.. I missed the beach.. somehow = =|| I just have this thought or craving to stand by the beach and scream my lungs out, feel the ocean breeze, the soft tender beach sand, the breathtaking scenery and listen to the waves of the oceans. Let's hope next Saturday I can get some opportunity to enjoy at the beach while surveying for campsite.

Wish I could be here, now

P/s: Forever is over.

Freedom Day - 3

Been busy with this and that lately.. mostly havin fun and still I am deprived of rest. Life after exams is almost the same just that we are worrying and busying about different things. Okayy 1st off, bought and played RedFaction-Guerrilla which I had always wanna get my paws on it. This game is very realistic, anything around u can be demolished, and once u do that.. it stay demolished for the rest of the game. Other than that, stayed home alone for Saturday night and I ordered a pizza.HAHA and it only cost me 8bucks cause mom gave me vouchers that was soon to be expired. Then stayed up all night till around 5am where I reluctantly went to sleep at the couch.(too lazy to walk to bedroom = =)

Pizza!!! :D

Sunday morning was suppose to be at school at 9am. Instead I overslept and woke up at 9.45am by a phone call frm my classmates(actually there are 5msg & 6 miss calls and my phone is not silent). Rushed to greentown to meet up classmates for breakfast and went back school to work on our drama for 6th form night. Later on went church and we had food eating competition!!! Well it was not what I expected.. to me food competition = dozens of sausages on the table and the person who can finish the most in the given time wins, well thats not what occured, but we did had plenty of fun though.

*much*much*much*swallow

As for recently, my class decided to scrap the default plan for the drama for 6th form night and start over with a new one. Reason is, the original plan was way out of topic and have no decent storyline. The new one however is simple yet groundbreaking. If we pulled it off successfully, it will surely be a unique performance compared to the other class. However things are easier said that done, all our past efforts were wasted completely and we have to start all over, pouring more effort, running the extra mile, dedicating more time and more self sacrificing. Good thing is, most of them are happy with the new plan. One more week to go till the next d-day. SIGHHH.

An eternity of Pringles!!! o.o

P/s: Let's be friends again, I've gotten tired of the silence.