Itu Kamu

-verse 1-
Segala yang ku pasti akan aku capai tuk mengambil hati mu
Melepasi angkasa cinta ku
Sesudah aku melafazkan kesemua yang diperlu
Ianya seperti suluhan yang terang

-verse 2-
Segala yang kau ragui akan ku padam habis dari hati mu
Mengingkari dalaman akal mu
Takkan puas ku, mengiringi semua tawa dan tangisan mu,
Anggun wajahmu, pelita yg terang

-pre-chorus-
Hatiku mahu mu
Rupa mu
Masih masih masih masih...

-Chorus-
Kau terindah
Masih ada
Yang tercantik
Itu Kamu

-verse 3-
Tiada mengapa taupun sampai bila kerna cinta enggan kenal mengalah
Memanah masuk hatiku yang reti
Setelah kau nampak tetap ku masih menunjukkan erti hidupku
Yang mahu bersama kau buat selamanya...

-Itu Kamu-

This is one of the very few Malay song's that I enjoy hearing. Thumbs up to our local artist on this one.. its real good...
Took a power nap today.. finally!! A good sleep after 3 weeks of torment in school.

A few friends came back from KL, Singapore, and Penang. Gonna find some time to hang out with them.. catch up with their lives and so on.


P/s:Give me a brake.. or I will break.

Holiday

LADIES AND GENTLEMAN

IT'S HOLIDAY!

Ok i wont waste my time blogging and you shudnt waste your time reading. Shoo!! go Have fun or attend some personality improvement class or something *jk-ing


P/s:I miss the beach..seriously .. crap

Solitude

Officially I won't be going to SPC Youth camp. So sry guys and gals. I was told I am the vid recording head of that camp or something but I just can't rearrange everything. Rest assured a team is set up to handle Video Recording. But I might drop by If i'm free..since its in Ipoh and I can drive whereever and whenever I want.. XD

Somehow.. there are more private reasons why I can't go. So to those whos gonna ask things to the bottom.. dont ask me anything.Appreciate that.

Did I say that 95% I will get a Proton Saga? Well .. that 5% took over ... and now I won't be getting a Proton Saga. But I might get something better(*woohoo).. or NOTHING(*pray it wont happen) <It's still under discussion anyhow>

Bdw I don't understand a single thing in Physics today.SHIT
And tomro there will be 3 periods of it. SHIT x 2
And its the 1st period in the morning. SHIT x 3
And teacher say she's gonna give exercise. SHIT x 423674284234....


I need a song to help me stand again... Because there just aint any1 left in this world that can help me.. all I have now.. is myself...as usual.
P/s: T-minus 15hours to Holiday. Rawr!

Screw This

I need to attend an anger management class

or else I'm gonna explode into a trillion pieces

and those who pissed me off is gonna be evaporated.

This week had really drive me up the wall

NO MORE BAD NEWS.

I AM NOT PREPARED FOR IT.

P/s: Don't ask why.

Is there a Diversion?

Form 6.. i was just about getting use to it. The time table the routine.. and yes .. i was napping pratically everyday.( I can really Sleep just so you know it )

But Monday.. out of a sudden, Headmaster announced that Form 6 will have additional class from 2-4pm.. WTH?! TWO TO FOUR PM???!!!! Havent we have more than enough study time already??? What is wrong with you people??? HUH?! Sitting in the comfy chairs breathing too much contaminated air-cond air while burping and thinking what you gonna eat for the next meal??!! This is nuts.. I don't know hom am I gonna take it for the next 1 and a 1/2 year. 7am-1pm is a torment enought to drive me nuts already.. now I still need to take up another 2 more hours.. and its in the afternoon!!! and we're wearing wonderfull long pants!! with just obselete fan!! And we're tired .. and you expect us to study MORE!? People in the Education Department should come and experience a month in school before making these plans. Idiots.. You got that right.. plain Idiots.

This bad news contributed to my sudden mood swings.. I'm having a more hostile mood swing lately.. it occurs once in a while... so please .. don't push my "irritation button".Again I will stress out that I am freaking pissed off by the Form 6 new system.

I am not in a Good Mood now.

Good for you, keep it up.

P/s: Sorry for the swearing in that pic.
P/s/s:Well .. sum it all up.. Today was a good day because it had a perfect weather :D

A new saga?

Today went to a proton outlet with dad. Yep ... after months of consideration he's still considering to get me a Proton Saga anot.. LoL.But then .. i see an improvement in his consideration and smell a new car coming soon .. since he went to the outlet today and personally see the car.. I of course.. followed with enthusiasm. Well... at 1st I wanted colour Chilli Red.
But father suggested Metallic Black
Well ... conclusion?? Mom don't like black .. so we go on with Chilli Red. setteled.
Colour red will need to wait. Because its out of stock. Plus is still under consideration(apparently). 95% this baby is mine. Woohoo!!!!

But still this is still my ideal car.

I AM JUST KIDDING

It's all over, try to end it right this time around.
Let's get over, cause all of me is dead in the ground.

Physics

I had 3 periods of non-stop physics today. It really drilled my head a big hole.. and also 2 periods of add math.. crazy day. I can't even find the enthusiasm to sleep in class. LoL. Because I am struggling to understand what the teachers are teaching .. and also my class is kinda noisy. L6F4.. not the best class.. but its definitely one of the most intresting class in school. XD

I have some problems now.. that is I cant get an add math and Chemistry tuition. A bigger problem is .. both of this teacher in school .. kinda ineffective in teaching... T-T

rain rain .. go away..

So much for now. Random update .. since its Friday.
and YEA!! 1 more week till holiday!!! I CANT WAIT!!!


p/s:消失的下雨天
我好想再淋一遍
每想到失去勇气我还留着
好想再问一遍
你

100th post

Nothing special .. i'll just post up a song enjoy and have a nice day.
THEN-Brad Paisley

• verse1

I remember, trying not to stare the night that I first met you
You had me mezmorized
And three weeks later, in the front porch light
taking forty-five minutes to kiss goodnight
I hadn't told you yet
but I thought I loved you then

• Chorus

And now you're my whole life
now you're my whole world
I just can't believe the way I feel about you, girl
Like a river meets the sea,
stronger than it's ever been.
We've come so far since that day
And I thought I loved you then

• verse 2

And i remember, taking you back to right where I first met you,
You were so surprised
There were people around, but I didn't care
Got down on one knee right there once again,
I thought I loved you then

• bridge

I could just see you, with a baby on the way
And I could just see you, when your hair is turning gray
What I can't see is how I'm ever gonna love you more
But I've said that before

And now you're my whole life
now you're my whole world
I just can't believe the way I feel about you, girl
We'll look back someday, at this moment that we're in
And I'll look at you and say
And I thought I loved you then
And I thought I loved you then



I just hope someday some dreams can come true.
P/s:Physics is Drilling a big hole in my Big brain.. RAWR!!!!

Week2 Day2

Yesterday was Teacher's day in my school. I dint know that, If knew I will skip school. Reason? I stayed whole day in class.. with no teachers coming into class,doing nothing, absoloutely NOTHING!!! No text book, No homework, No Nothing!!! So what did I do? I listen classmate blow water(*They are very good at it) and tried to get some sleep.(*Tried but failed miserably bcos my class is freaking noisy). If i would know early.. I would rather stay at home.. watching movies or better still sleep the whole morning.. coz Monday morning was raining!!! Well it was raining heavily at 6am.

Today when I drove at my housing area.. saw something ridiculous. I saw a cat chasing after a dog,dont know what make the cat so pissed off.. = =|| wth! LoL! I actually stopped my car and watched for a few minute..Lmao

So much for now.. the boredom of school life had squeeze out all of my creativity to post anything intresting. So just bare with me.

fear

This feeling
it's nothing when I'm strong
But it's something when I'm on my knees

It robs me
Off my appetite
My sleep My dreams My goals

It engulf me
Like a black hole
It wont even give me a ray of hope

Those words that says
"we wont be given a problem we can't handle"
It still casting doubts on me

Can I jumped of that cliff?
And live to tell the story?
Or will I die,
And be considered the biggest fool?

This had to stop
One way or other
Problems are born to be solved
No matter how big or many they are

Sims Star Trek

Bumped into a video on U-Tube. It's about Star trek. I think only those who watched Star Trek will find it amusing. By the way .. I enjoyed the movie.. just there's not enough action fighting and they over do the CGI effects.However the movie still deserves a Thumbs Up and a Few Claps.

I wanted to post the video on my blog but I cant due to some resolution problems..bla bla bla.. So i will just link it.

WATCH HERE!!!!!

Quite true.

P/s: Glory Glory MU!!! *no idea why am I cheering

I'm moving on - Rascall Flatts

I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on

P/s:How do I rebuilt something that is in ashes?

Starting line

Form 6. Getting knocked of from your sweet dreams and bed every morning by the Almighty alarm clock. Just like the past 3 years -____- and I am about to repeat this horrifying experience for another one and a half year.A little thing different this year is that I will be driving to school..Woohoo! I have 28 people in my class.. and 9 of them are applying for transfer to art stream..great. Took a glance on my syllabus.. gave me quite a shiver. Really need to get my lazy butt moving if I were to catch up. On Friday, I had my 1st math class. My teacher decides to give us a few math exercise from Form5. And I cant solve a single one of it!!! OMG!!! I pratically forget almost everything about form 4 and form 5.. shit!! My English teacher also brief us about MUET. And it doesn't sound easy to me... thanks to the new Format T_T

I have problems waking up at 8am while not schooling.. so leave alone 6am.

P/s: What am I trying to achieve now?

Still good..hopefully

Yesterday was Orientation day2. I had station games. Not bad.. my group got numb 3. It's not the placing that matters .. is those silly moments when we play. My group was named Aries. I should've jumped in to the Cancer group..lol. Well the games are not bad at all...Some are challenging.

Then today Morning again went on with the Combo Lecture Spamming by our generous speakers. Really.. I was nearly bored to the brink of insanity. After recess, we are distributed to our own class...I was lucky I am not alone. Believe or not .. I have the same person sitting beside with for the past 2 years.. and this year is Him again wth.. = =||. Well .. get to meet my classmates and my form teacher. 2 things I'm sure, 1st I will never be bored in class. 2nd My class will never be a quiet class. You get the picture.

So tomoro I will get to know my subject teachers. My last year add math teacher is my math teacher for my class this year. Frankly I have a bad reputation with him and I foresee a hard time in my Math period.>.< Other than that .. I hope my teachers are good.



P/s: How does dead memories comes back? Thought I murdered it.

Too Close

Wasted my whole morning in school listening to ppl crapping on stage.. gee...sometimes I wonder can't they shorten their fairytale? They are like taking turns spamming our ears with not so helpful or outdated information. What is wrong with a long fairytale? people will fall asleep before its finished!!

Something happened tonight .. it was too close for comfort, I escaped holocaust within an inch. *shivers Will try to prevent that from happening again. >.<

Just some random post since I'm bored.


P/s:Why am I feeling as if you hate me now? brother...

Here it comes

Today is mother's day. Morning told Mom that tonight I will take her for dinner. Sounds nice right? I was thinking she will choose some ordinary western cafe and have chicken chop. But afternoon she suddenly said , "Tonight bring me go Citrus la, there the chicken chop very nice". I nvr been to Citrus, so without 2nd thought I said OK. Then msn ask Enjun, what is the average price dinning in Citrus.. He said "GG lo you ,around RM30 per pax" O.O dint saw that coming. But then at night parents somehow decided to go have dinner together with a few of their friends. XD But then .. I will be visiting Citrus on fathers day = =.

That about wraps up my crap.

Form 6 starts officially tomoro. A new phase of my life has begun. It started 5-6 months later than others, but I don't mind. Gonna have a new routine tomoro. Gonna wear full white tomoro. bla bla bla. Here it comes, life of studies, exams and tuitions again.Is it really that hard studying in Form 6? Does it really makes you go nuts? Is it really all its crap up to be? I'll find out soon enough.

P/s: My last moment of absoloute freedom was spent on writing this post.

End Game.

It's officially decided. I am going for Form6 , any plans to make last minute decisions, transitions had been utterly wiped off from my mind. I am really staying. Got my hair-cut yesterday too .. and gonna get my school shirt tomoro. Newspaper is getting more interesting these days for some reasons. Particularly these 2 days. And I'm having a bad flu , just before school starts.. great.

I've choose my road.
Now I'm gonna focus on achieving.

P/s: Can't they settle this like grown ups? Oh wait.. they are grown ups? I've mistaken them for little kids who pee on their pants.(*i'm referring to those Po_it_cia_s )

This Moment

Few hours more, before I sign up. So what its gonna be?
Leave everything behind and start anew?
Stay and deal with the past?

I have a calling to answer, and I am determined to answer it. That is why I am finding it so hard to make this decision. Which is really the right one? Which the one that the supreme being up there wants me to go? Am I really given a decision to choose on my own this time?
I prayed hard, and it will be answered tomoro. A phrase from an old friend reminded me..

If ur determined to answered His calling
No matter which way you choose
You will still end up in the path He called you to be

Whatever decision I made, I'm sorry if I'm gonna disappoint a few of you. You know who you are.

P/s: There's no swine flu in Malaysia right? Cause I'm getting a flu and fever = ="

Crossroad

Today morning suppose to go play basketball .. but when I woke up I was very dizzy and can't even stand for a few sec. So canceled everything and sleep untill almost 12pm. Guess sleepless nights really took a toll on me. I'm starting to sleep well now .. Finally!!! =D

Less than a week school will start. Tomoro I will only know for sure if I can go form6. And guess what? I am going to watch wolverine again tomoro .. for the 3rd time = =". I'm wandering now will I fall asleep in the cinema..lol. Or I will be the spoiler telling ppl beside what will happen next? XD

At the crossroad.. I said I'd go left.. But I am still looking at the right. I am still thinking which to take.. I am still wandering .. it's simply because I still have time that will run out very soon.Honestly, a little part of me hope that my name will not appear on the Form6 enrollement list. Don't ask why. And yea .. getting a sore troat now = =". Damn it.
Yea a picture I stumbled in the web ..it's about Education

When in Doubt, Just Smile and Nod

P/s: I can't walk alone. Not anymore.

Indecisive

Been driving alot lately.. want to brush up my driving skills before school starts. Reason? Imagine if I get to drive to school everyday.. and I usually tend to wake up late.. means I have to drive fast and safe.. so yea.. that's my reason. XP

I screwed up almost everything in life. But I won't screwed up on this.

And yes... playing "Gotcha!" is actually really amusing!

Rascal Flatts: Here Comes Goodbye

I can hear the truck tires coming up the gravel road
And its not like her to drive that slow, nothings on the radio
Footsteps on the front porch, I hear my doorbell
She usually comes right in, now I can tell


Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear Im gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye


I can hear her say I love you like it was yesterday
And I can see it written on her face that she had never felt this way
One day I thought Id see her with her daddy by her side
And violins would play here comes the bride


Why does it have to go from good to gone?
Before the lights turn on, yeah and you're left alone
All alone, but here comes goodbye


Sleepless nights driving me nuts.. Damn!!!

P/s: Gotcha!

Origins

Today morning went out .. watch my juniors have Backwoodsmen camp. It's sorta like cooking competition but its done with primitive tools. And those tools had to be made by them selves. Example..Coconut Bowl, Bamboo Cup.. and the list goes on..
This year was not bad..The food was okay .. decoration and hygiene was good to my surprise =D

Yea.. Did I mentioned? My school had turned into a freaking Prison!! Or at least a Military School!! Even play basketball also need to book the court..wth?! We students pay cold hard cash for that new court to appear and now You freakos want us to book only can play?! Summore not enough people cannot play?! You got that right.. I am damn pissed off by the changes that happened in my school.

*Okay.. chill

Later in the afternoon went to Jusco and watched X-men Origins, Wolverine. Awesome movie.. the plots with so much twist and turns plus effects is very good. 8/10 for me. The ending is quite sucky.. especially when ur already in abit depressed mood.

Well... I pretty much drove my self everywhere today XD. It was fun driving around enjoying the breeze listening radio..till I bumped into a Traffic Jam! Plus that time my car's oil is hitting empty.. it kinda make me nervous ..seriously.


P/s: It's been 2 weeks now.. when can I really sleep well?? Those sleepless nights is really driving me up the wall.Rawr!

Because It was my decision to make

Today went to Meru Valley in the morning to help out some stuff then afternoon had fun there with enoch and eugene. Well shudnt had done that.. morning felt a little weird.. and after playing under the sun for the afternoon.. i'm having fever at night = =".
To a few peoples knowledge.. Meru Valley was a place of my childhood... I always went there when I was a kid.

wanted to post pictures but the internet was bad..Grrrr..

And yes...alot people been asking why I stayed for Form6. I know last year I was Saying" I'll go Form 6 over my dead body" but then even the most arrogant minds can be changed..wouldn't you agree on that? I changed my mind for several reasons. And I wont elaborate on that.. so stop asking me why. Bdw .. told a few friends and so far a few yelled and sweared ..XD
So much for now.




P/s: can time really heal and forgive??