Dear Rabbit

How is it possible that you still lingered?

But yet apparently, here I am, baited to stay, baited to dig deeper, probably deeper than before, probably chasing blind dreams and madness. I know i have a fair share of blind dreams that would make even the idiotic optimist laugh and probably my madness is induced by work. Perhaps I am right now an unstable concoction. Perhaps.

By my calculations and self drawn out timeline by now i should've had moved on, forget about, and be very dive deep in work. But i guess numbers don't always tell the truth. If they do, mathematicians would've ruled the world.

Aside from the unmeaningful, totally non-related to me post, Msft extended my internship. Woots. 1 little step closer to full time. A small step for an intern, a giant leap for James.



P/s: Maybe we should stop those shenanigans. Selfishly for my own good.

Days

There are days where it is just so bad that it could not even be described. Days where you're so weak and tired that you do not even want to complain but to just go to be silently and pray for a better day tomorrow. Today is one of those days.

Such is life

So intern. I don't even know where to start. So much went on, so much went through and still so much more.

Nah. I won't talk about it yet. It's work hard, play hard. And sleep is optional.

Cause

I prayed. And if it should be then it will be. I have no qualms of it. I will take this differently this time.

"Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You've never failed and You won't start now"

God, I pray for nothing but that You'll be with me.

Dear God,

I miss her. And I'm afraid I will miss her for many nights to come.

Attenuated

“My thoughts are stars I can't fathom into constellations.”
― John Green

So true. So true.

So I do read. And I do appreciate writings. The more I know about myself. Shocking. Really.

June-s

There is this weird re-occurrence that June is usually the most challenging or the most down of the month for me. It's just that most years, things bound to pop up during this time and I've have to deal with it.

Just saying. These are just words of a guy been spending time with himself mostly for a week. A goodness it is so satisfying. Time to myself, time to have deepthoughts, time to be lost in thinking about all the possible future, time to think about all the past were it to happen differently. Time to align, what is important as well.

"What a slut time is. She screws everybody"