4 oh! 4

They said 'Have no fear'.

They arent speaking sense

  In the end, no matter how strong it feels or bad Iwanted it, It's still kept bottom in. Cause I know it will not work out even by a miracle chance I get you, and I know it will be more frown then smile if we were ever together for real. I've understood it that thou there is attraction, it is plainly the attraction of the opposite, and too much conflict between us would spark unrest if we were ever too close.

  Still, it's a memory of bliss yet unreal. It will always remain a story that only I will know and I live to remember. Goodbye my wonderful world, goodbye my wonderful memory. As time would move on, so does life has to move ahead. And this moment of a few seconds that will create a memory of a lifetime, a memory I will be grateful of having. You're a saint, and I'm a lucky mortal. Doubt you can see this anyways.

And it just rained at 1.11am. 

Close your eyes

 and it will all be gone.

As what said today. You are your own greatest motivation. Anyone can motivate you to only a certain level, and after that you have to motivate yourself to get to where you wanted or what you wanted achieve. 

Success is 99% perspiration and 1% inspiration. Shared by Pastor Chris Choo on this Sunday morning. Without a doubt many fields can relate to this.

Out of pure randomness i went to do some photoshooting right after an early dinner few days ago. It was still early, but the sun was setting and hence the lighting was bad. Bad timing for a sudden urge to shoot photos outside.. lol.

Just so happens 2 of my neighbor kids is playing outside with neighbors and parents.*My neighbor hood is quite friendly*. Took a few photos .. most are quite noisy due to high Iso also blurry with coz im on quite a low shutter speed. Blame the light! lol.

In pursuit of Joy. Only you can get hold of what you pursue. Nothing is spoon fed.

Decision making time i guess. Wish me luck.

Into the unknown

I've been stuck in the same place just like 2 years ago. Same situation. Have tons of information yet unable to make a decisive choice.

Possibly, the only reason stopping me from taking this leap is cause I am too afraid of making a wrong decision. Many don't really realize but I am nearly a perfectionist in the things that matters to me. This have to be just right, that have to be just enough. And as for this case, this decision have to be just right. Something that I can work on, that I can understand, and the cert is of value in the future and indefinitely get me a job that pays well.

Sounds easy but it's totally not. All those nights of constant thinking and picturing future scenarios on which way I should head to and what I should eventually become.. my mind never gets fatigue thinking about it. It just wouldnt stop.

As an old friend said, 'When your thought doesnt fits your age'

401

It's been quite lately as nt much is going on. Heck life aint bliss when nothing much is going on. You feel empty in a way somehow. Nope. Working doesnt cures it, It makes me feel productive in a manner. Nothing more than that.

However just recently something has been going on. However unpleasant or pleasant it is, It's still something at least. Can't be picky I suppose..lol.

1st off, Almost all my relatives came back from Johor. Well it's cause grandpa died last year Dec and I think they went to visit His tomb I suppose. Well, it feels nice having relatives around, no doubt they are noisy and to my surprise they are actually more buggy then my parents.(just wont stop asking questions bout my personal life = =). Also! I was a baby sister(butler sounds more like it) to 2 of my lil cousins. They gave me an incredibly time, pleasant & unpleasant. 1st, they are quite attention seekers, so it literally meant I can't sit down properly and finish my lunch on my own. Secondly, well they just have to ask just about ANYTHING.. the fun part is coming up with creative ways to answer them.(or cheat..lol) Still it was fun, did miss them abit after they went back Johor. Well, probably i'm just bored. Didn't take much photos of them cause they are camera shy. 

I guess thats about cover it then. Also been eating loads of porridge this few days.. thanks to my ulser. Grhh.

Rest well and Rest till my heart's content. Life is gonna be on a shooting rocket in the coming months. Can't wait.

P/s: Yeah Yeah. I'm lazy to update my blog. Sue me! =P

What's up?

Twenty - five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination
And I realized quickly when I knew I should
That the world was made up of this brotherhood of man
For whatever that means
And so I cry sometimes
When I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out
What's in my head
And I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning
And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream at the top of my lungs
What's going on?
And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what's going on?
Ooh, ooh ooh
And I try, oh my god do I try
I try all the time, in this institution
And I pray, oh my god do I pray
I pray every single day
For a revolution
And so I cry sometimes
When I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out
What's in my head
And I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning
And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream at the top of my lungs
What's going on?
And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what's going on?
Twenty - five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination 

Awesome song That I bumped on a reality show called 'We got married' 

Out of Shape

VERY Out of Shape. I fully realized this just yesterday, which is Sunday. I still do some push ups & sit ups occasionally, however that is nothing .. lol.

Yesterday, met up with Keng, Jeff & Hau for lunch. After lunch, Hau suggested the idea we join him basketball with other ex-samtet students. I joined out of boredom.

When they started the game, I am having the K.O look within 15 minutes. Beating heart and walking like a old man .. lol! And now Monday morning hving cramps on both leg. = ="

Oh btw. Line is very bad this few days. Gah.

Also, bumped on this short clip, advertisement to be exact. However it's kinda inspiring .. lol. Also a good idea, watch it everyday before going to work. Bet it's gonna motivate you.

40 Day Dream

This song might nt be most people's cup of tea. But it is definitely mine. Don't know why, but I am fairly addicted to it. Also added it into my playlist.

 

I've been sleeping for forty days and
Yeah, I know that I'm sleeping cause this dream's too amazing
She got gold doorknobs where her eyes used to be, yeah
One turn and I learned what it really means to see, yeah

It's the magical mystery kind
Must be a lie
Bye bye to the too good to be true kind of love
Oooooh I could die
Oooooh now, I could die

Now I've been sleeping for sixty days and
Nobody better pinch me
Bitch I swear, go crazy
She got jumper cable lips
She got sunset on her breath
I inhaled just a little bit
Now I got no fear of death

It's the magical mystery kind
Must be a lie
Bye bye to the too good to be true kind of love
Oooooh I could die
Oooooh now, I could die

It's the magical mystery kind
Must be a lie
Bye bye to the too good to be true kind of love
Oooooh I could die
Oooooh now, I could die 

Finally did some photo shooting in conjunction with a friends birthday & outing with the Usst gang. More pictures will be up on fb soon.

At times. It just gotta do it.

Sometimes life just really gave such a big slap that you literally tremble down to earth as if giving you this reminder that you are stone to the ground and all your fantasies of flying in the sky with the doves are all mere dreams.

Some people who unluckily got this slap(*who doesnt?) will choose to seclude themselves from the rest of the world to get a hold of themselves & think things through. They will then devise a strategy to stand back up. 1st with their hands, then their knees and finally back on their feet

Some, decided turn to their friends for support. If they are lucky they would get a hand boost from their friend and save the getting back on their knees part. Some unluckier ones will be judged instead and eventually found that instead of getting back up, they get buried into the ground. Be it criticism or circumstantial.

Those rare cases are when they would know whats what and give you the exact boost you will need to get back on your feet that you won't be pampered and be independant. Without asking. Sometimes, without them even knowing cause its just what they do. Those are the modern day saints i suppose.

Heck, I'm just being random.

Also, came across this quote

Everybody wants happiness, and nobody wants pain, but you can't have a rainbow, without a little rain.

Btw. I am literally dead tired. Working coupled with sleeping disorders KILLS.

p/s: Yeah i know, no more pictures. I will try to post some up next time.
 

You don't know me

The song that carries the night away for the moment. Thanks to How I met your mother, again. xD