Looking back

It's been so long & so much.

and there is definitely so much more to live for.

Wonders how much longer will it take till I reach the end of this tunnel

So what

I'm still not a rock star.

I still have to admit. Sometimes it just sucks to be single. Just sometimes. After given much thought, in the end i realized it's just my fear of loneliness.

Just a random thought.

To everything

There is a 1st time.

Celebrated 11/11/11 and Early 12/11/11 with a bunch of friends. Joined in a drinking game which I eventually come to realize I am not built for it. Since I was the newbie and they already know my low tolerant for alcohol, I finished my 1st cup quite quickly.

Eventually, by the 2nd round, I gave in and my head got so heavy that I pulled out, On one condition. I have to bottoms up one cup filled partially by *name of alcohol I forgot*. Then, I literally K.O

At 1st I thought I just slept through the night cause I excused my self from playing the 2nd round of the drinking game. But then, from others I heard that I did something else. Like seriously, I didn't even know I joined in true or dare(I think they said i joined, which I didn't even know they played that game at all)

Remember the scene of Hangover? where the characters totally forgot what happened last night? Well it sort of happened to me.

Some say I puke at the balcony(the pail was JUST BESIDE ME) then wave my hands to the air saying I feel so light that I can fly. Some say I threatened to kill them and set others of fire. Some say I tried jumping into the drain. And well, some say I almost drunk dialed. And so on.

Frankly, I can only remember less then half the things I remembered. I only know I felt like crap till the early mornings. And even when I woke up the 1st round in the morning I still feel like crap. But yeah, 1st time for everything. Call me crazy, but somehow it's mysteriously exciting as well, waking up having almost no recollection of what happened last night.

But yeah, I would definitely try not to repeat it. Don't know what other crazy things I might do.

P/s: All above are things I heard from witnesses and I have almost no recollection of what I did that night. So yeah, others might be a bit high as well, so it might not be that fully accurate. Still, I will never see coca-cola the same way again.

Solitude

No idea why, every time coming to this season, I would want to go somewhere alone. Spend sometime in solitude, to straighten up myself. My life goals. To relax. To get my mind back on track.

Perhaps like an escape, to somewhere i can shut myself from the world. Momentarily. Don't tell me in stucking myself at my hostel room. Self lock in that small room is just plain depressing. No, I wanted somewhere where I can see the skies, and where the sky touches the seas. And where the voice of the beach.

Reading a book by the beach sounds like a perfect idea right now.

If I am super rich one day. I will definitely buy a small house by the beach.

Live Laugh Love

quoted from somewhere la. It's not my quote definitely. Yet from now on I will make it a point that I will live my life on how it's meant to be lived. Like everyday it's the last.

Fed up emo-ing or having emotional thoughts bout things that is not yet time to happen.It is bound to happen, no matter what. So I will shelve it, and stop thinking bout it.

Still,

What a machine! - Jeremy Clarkson

Sometimes

I wonder do you remember me? Or do you even know that I existed.

Still, lol.

Novemeber

The clock strikes twelve and here comes a month to remember. October was fairly a roller coaster ride, infact been one of the toughest month that I have to go through since my Uni life started. All the cramped up assignments course works, and pressure. It just does take a toll on you sometimes.

The one week break was a much needed one. Also, in one week, the high and low changes were fairly spectacular. Gotta admit thou, one of the best days of my life during this year is in one the days. :D 

A new month sets it, with greater expectations, larger dreams and also a vast new opportunities. It starte out with a rain when the clock strikes twelve, yet

 Sun and clear skies will always be there after the rain.