Round 2

Fingers crossed. Overconfident of doing well in 1st sem caused me to slack off in 2nd sem. Just let me pass! *shivers*

Yesterdays

Just no idea why, it came back. Still, just something temporary, bet it will subside soon enough. Still, que sera sera :)

Enough

Riding against the tide is suicidal. Just take it and go.

something beyond the rain

Just not sure if the rain will ever stop. But hey, beats not believing it will at all.

Alright, I survived. Now I am back to living life. 1st off, came back Ipoh and immediately started eating again :D .. aww the awesome home cooked food. 

Then got a chance to use my new flash gun. Used it for today's photoshoot for my ex-addmath teacher's wedding. Don't think I am using it to it's full potential yet. Still, much to learn much to understand, much to the taken in. 

 Raja Sehari

1st time being labelled as the official assistant photographer, wing man to the Groom's brother, who is the main photographer. There is even an angpau to boot, and honestly that angpau was very generous, shock the day lights out of me when I opened it. 

Not that I am a super good photographer that is good enough to open a photoshooting studio, but then I am working on improving so to maybe, just maybe use it as a part time job. U know, where I would something of my interest and get paid at the same time. 2 birds with 1 stone. Booyah.

Perhaps. Still, let the future James figure it out.

Christmas soon and this holiday is gonna be like... TONS of photos to filter up. :D

Rivers and Roads

by The Head and The Heart

a year from now we'll all be gone
all our friends will move away
and they're going to better places
but our friends will be gone away

nothing is as it has been
and i miss your face like hell
and i guess it's just as well
but i miss your face like hell

been talking bout the way things change
and my family lives in a different state
and if you don't know what to make of this
then we will not relate
so if you don't know what to make of this
then we will not relate

rivers and roads
rivers and roads
rivers 'til i reach you

 

something like an au lang syne, a song of goodbyes, just that this is more, well, deep i guess. Even the band name sounds good. Imo.

6hours30minutes to my Final Paper of this year.

 

Honestly? I think I did very bad this semester. Literally calculating minimum marks needed to pass. Been slacking off quite abit too. I regret bitterly as I see my coursework mark, regret, but not given up. Fight on like a mad man and now I can only cross my fingers and hope the mad dash effort for my finals was well worth the sacrifice.

I know it's my fault if I fail. Yet, Go easy on my conscious. I know I've been told to take the blame.

 

Been helluva ride this week, seriously. Gonna be absent minded after tomorrow 10am for at least a period of time. Gonna head back to my home, my safe heaven, where I can do all the figuring out that I want or perhaps just let things go and supplement the complexity with ignorance.

 

Simplicity is merely the absence of acknowledgement same goes to complexity is just the absence of ignorance.

Hmm .. pics will come soon! :D

The horror!

Finals again. and then would be a long long break. Or a short break. Whatever.

Say my prayers, cross my fingers, and hold on to my notes for dear life. As usual, I just want to pass. 

Guess I am quite stressed out since quite a few around me is telling me to stop being so stressed. And, I am having insomnia. Literally.

Blank

Cause, I don't think there is anything else I can say.

Still, forget bout the previous post. It's just a sudden mood swing. Lasted few days, but yeah, with exams creeping in, there is no room for it.

Last weekend helped Ah Chai to keep his new widescreen. 2nd hand, but still in good condition. So.. well since it would be a waste just putting it there at the corner of my room, I decided to plug it into my laptop. And after a new place arrangement,  and voilà!!

I dare say I am the ONLY guy at the moment in INTI with this configuration at my desk

My 2nd neighbor suspected that I am a hacker. Lol. I am not = =. 

Blue sky. I am always amazed how perfect the blue is.

I may always seem like a simple minded fool, 

in fact behind it all there is complexity.

I may seem racist and laugh about the jokes it make,

in fact when the veil is off, I have a strong desire to see my country, my home, united as one.

I may seem like a kid,

and perhaps I wanted to remain as one,

Skinned knees hurts less then broken hearts.

But as I look back through those experience I've gained,

I am already nearing an adult stage.

It is not your physical appearance, that makes you an adult.

It's what you've been through and how you think that counts.

Guess I will be one soon, no matter how I hide it.

And I have no plans to hide it anyways. 

Time to take the truth to heart and live on. Live on for the dreams of tomorrow and pray that the road behind will always echo a song of the blessed. 

Work hard and live fully.

When in doubt

Just flick it.

I've been running and running. Away and further away. Although I've always said I've stopped running, but it never seems so, guess I've never really changed over this few years. It's been awhile since I have really faced off with reality. It's been awhile since I've had really touch the ground and feel the soil. Perhaps, just perhaps there is no such things as the right one, no such things of what is meant to be and whats not.

Not a day goes by without me thinking will it make a difference if I only did what I am suppose to do that evening. If I told you everything that was meant for your ears.

As days goes by without any progress in sight, I'm starting to believe less and less. Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now, perhaps the principle i held onto all along is just a fabric of imagination cooked up by myself and philosophers. Let me dream a little more, let this infant in me live a while longer. Before it dies off, before I act like how I am suppose to be, before, I stop believing.


A little part of me died that day when I know I lost you. And I guess that has been me ever since for some time, pulling the other parts of me together, so it will not fall off.

I'm just saying.

It's a symphony

Lighten up they say.

Such ignorance, Such arrogance.

Still, no matter how foolish it sounds like, I would always hold true to the phrase of dancing in the rain.

I no longer know what to think. It's just so not me, but I am at lost when I am around you. Heck. And I though feelings subsides.

Still,

Just keep smiling, smiling smiling...