and in the midst of doubts

and fear, perhaps it is time to live a little.

Time to be that yes man again shall I? Think I should.

I missed it

somehow. So many years, so many moments, and i just did not come to realize it until it was too late.

It's troubling, seeing how blinded I was by the unnecessary. It's saddening, that I did not take the opportunity. And whats more frustrating is that I am drawn to a dead vineyard that after so much plowing and waiting, it never bear fruit. If only time can be turned back, things might be so different right now. Maybe yes maybe no. Perhaps it is for the best.

It's puzzling anyway, what i just written, but i just need to get it off my chest. Plus, anyone reading the story would not believe it as well, perhaps only the very few in the circle who already knew.

I was blinded, not by one but by 3 person over the period of 5 years. How can I be so blind where you were always there. Now we are so different that I start to doubt we ever met or ever be friends. The realization might had came too late, but perhaps this is just what it is suppose to happen. I'll make up for it, if our lives ever cross paths again.

Life of Pi

I actually went in to the cinema full of doubt that I will enjoy my time at all. But nonetheless, the movie made an impression on me. I would include it as one of best movie I've watched so far. And one movie that I will not hesitate to rewatch it again. It actually made me feel like reading the book now as well, oddly.
 
The movie was actually on better than average throughout, until at the last part when the japanese company interview him, it becomes great, who knows such a story can be told in a different perspective and challenging me on which to believe. That surprise was very unexpected and it gave the movie a much more darker side of the story, and it is primarily one of the reasons why I wanna watch it again.

I suppose in the end, the whole of life becomes an act of letting go, but what always hurts the most is not taking a moment to say goodbye - Adult Pi Patel

New Year and

New,

Bridges
Opportunities
Resolution
Promises
Couples
Singles
People
and
Infinitely more.

Spent the last days of my 2012 celebrating the union of Sarah Jiayi & Ching Seng. The story of how they met, fell for and ultimately leading to that day deserves a 'Truestory' mark, specially for Ching Seng side. Won't go much into the details.

Then right after the new year went to Penang for ICF Leaders Retreat. It is refreshing and throughout the retreat it hits me over and over again where I am constantly doing a self evaluation and personal reflection on my principles and my the values I uphold. And to realize that I am so 'off' just leaves me troubled even as of now. This retreat is exactly what I needed to begin my 1st steps on hopping back on track.

And also, sem starts, like in a few days. GAHHHHHHH.

10,000

Reasons.

And here I am, after surviving 3 end of the world predictions(roughly I don't remember how many are there) and going to an island of bridge, food and beach.