a doze of the past, an ever real present & a glimpse of the future

Directions in life, We all need it once in a while

I'll Move On -OlivaOng

This road that I'm taking twists and turns
My life my chance turning dreams into reality.
Down this path faced with so many things
Sometimes I feel like giving up and turn away

Can't seem to go on
And I've been thru' this before
Now where am I?
Where do I stand?
A little lost here.
But I'll remember.
All those times you've bought me thru'.
I'd be a fool to give up cos' the goal is near

I'll move on I'll go on.
Lord I will take your hand.
And you will guide me along.
Survive thru' this storm.
So I say, come what may.
I'll hold on to my hope.
Yes, I will walk down this road.
And my passion drive will lead me on

Here I am Once again caught in the rain.
Looking back I've come so far And I want to carry on
Take a step at time
It's alright.
Even thru' this rain, I want to smile again

Don't hold back now.
And i've been thru' this before.
Now where am I?
Where do I stand?
A little lost here.
But I'll remember.
All those times you've bought me thru'.
I can feel the sun shining down on me

Here I am, Here I am. Lord I will take your hand.
And you will guide me along.
Survive thru' this storm.
So I say, come what may.
I'll hold on to my hope.
Yes, I will walk down this road.
And my passion drive will lead me on.

I always wonder why, a song with awesome lyrics never seem to be a hit... or at least appear in the billboard charts. Different taste perhaps? or whatever.

Anyway, its another great song by Olivia Ong, its the 2nd song in my playlist. Its pretty encouraging and nonetheless empowering in its own unique way. Well for me at least. A 1st hand warning, this song might cause a little emotional disturbance too .. xD.

And while I was having dinner at 1919(a restaurant behind Jusco) at Saturday, It played Oliva Ong's song.. lol. The last song I expect to hear from a cafe like restaurant. Yea, I guess i'm pretty much into slow/sleepy/peaceful songs for the moment.. all to simmer down my soon to explode pressurized life.

Well thats enough explaining.

After the movie Inception, I can't sleep. Eyes wide open at 2.30am -> Force myself to sleep -> Eyes wide open at 7.15am and watch&wait for the alarm to ring.

Its Sunday dammit.. i'm suppose to wake up late =.="

onto life,

Today church was kinda disturbing. Not I dont meant the sermon, neither the atmosphere. Just that I was disturbed by a guy sitting behind with a major Flu issues and .. well .. just plain disturbing =.= .. and impolite too.. GAH.

After that ordeal, went to meet up with my bros. Jeff, Chai and Hau. Had an awesome time sharing stories, experiences, updating each other, talking bout the future, blowing water, explaining bout the movie inception details, talking bout complicated stuffs .. and so on. We can chat on and on .. =D

And shall I say.. I do miss the old days.. so so so damn much. Ya know? Those days where we threw the orange up on to the ceiling fan .. and all the other stuffs.. Sigh. If only I could rewind back time, to those pleasant memories .. where the most seemingly complicated choice I had to make is what song I want to listen frm my walkman cause its running out of battery.


P/s: No pictures from my phone due to insufficient time. Next post will have some. Promise.

Inception

an event that is a beginning; a first part or stage of subsequent events.
The movie itself was a little complicated as I cant really pay attention to the details of the characters conversation due to me almost freezing to death in the infamous cinema snowstorm yet again and really in need to go to the toilet but unwilling to go cause i dnt wanna miss any part of the show. Anyhow .. it was quite awesome. Specially the part the Van is falling down the river ..I find it very amusing .. lol.

Anyhow .. this movie does goes beyond the normal spank, whack and blow everything up cycle.. and its more than merely a sci-fi movie. One very true part of this movie is that how it reflects on the human nature that being in a perfect dream world is always so tempting that we do wish we can be in there forever without the need to face the harsh realities of the real world... well for most people.

Well that's as far as I gonna go I wont wanna be a spoiler. Still, this is a movie that you would like to watch .. but u would need to pay a little more attention or else its gonna be complicated and dizzy ..LOL. And a movie that could challenge your perception on reality is something worth watching.

kays. So much for now.

P/s:Determination. Its all that it takes. Isnt it simple enough?

Slow and steady?

To hell with it. Its total chaos.

Im referring to my timetables, schedule .. life.. everything. Its all a mess right now :(

Well this week started out quite well. I'm steadily progressing to tune in with life without internet and life has been slow and steady, I never felt better. The start of the week was an awesome one, XinXuan's magazine sales was better than I expected. Well, I was expecting that I could only sell half of the stock.. but apparently we sold more.. anyhow there is still some loose ends to tied up at that part. With the XinXuan published im relief off another burden and I can fully focus on one thing. STUDY. And for the 1st time this year, my boat is on calm waters.

Well, as history thought us, the only time where there is calm is the calm before the storm. Before you know it, BAHM! Mr.Hee announcing to us our trials has be changed from 27/9 to 16/8 on Thursday. Well, my life was never the same after that... infact our class was in total chaos and we actually did panicked for the last period. THIS SURPRISE IS REALLY DRIVING ME UP THE BREAKING POINT.

Well , in the future if anyone find it annoying that they cant me excited about any surprise at all, I will give credit to the State Educational Board who literally drop all kinds of shit made bombshell on my school days... for etc. Bringing forth our trials more than one month.

And I had to admit.. the weather is changing so drasticlly that I was shivering as if im living through an ice age in my room in one day(More than one day to be exact) and sweating like a pork on a barbeque pan in another(Today). Crazy weather.

Oh, ThankYou so much Digi that my life is now so much easier and fun with portable Facebook. :)

wise does not mean you don't make wise irrational decision

-EnJun-

Romance and all its strategy

Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth.

Well, photos of Friday night. :)

The people :)

The Two dependable assistants :D

And I'm to greet another week. Its getting tougher and tougher. Oh well. All the best to myself. Will blog again next week. If I survive. :P

有听过吗?
雨过天晴
you may not understand why.
But these four words, means everything

And finally .. the magazine will be officially published and sold tomorow.. :D
Oh btw .. gt a new song. Sang by Oliva Ong. A very talented singer with very awesome songs!

P/s: Sry for the emo songs btw.. lol. But i'm listening to them quite alot lately -.- .

Week Two

Well, I ought to stop counting the weeks. Its freaking me out too.

Just had Usst farewell dinner last night. It was frigging fun ... lol. And I literally took & pose for photos till i'm worn out ..1st time in life. = =.
If u guys/gals see this. Well, rest assured, you people are a big part in my Form6 life. Thanks you all for all the amazing memories and crazy stuffs we did. Blissfull indeed. :)

Watched Eclipse this week.

Erm, oh... not this ecplise.

Ahh, much better.. xD

Not bad. Its kinda funny at times .. specially those awkward moments in the show. And the cinema is frigging noisy.. brings up the atmosphere.. lol.

Well, ntg much happen this week .. just that im gonna hav Durian phobia for some time.

And its weekends.. :D

Weekends, Energize me

Life, just like a big experiment
With its fluctuations of high and lows

Week One

I survived. But then .. there are casualties. LOL.
Seriously .. life without internet is really kinda hard .. for me. FOR ME! Not you, you, or you .. and yes you over there.. not you too!

*cough cough*

Okay. Now, this week is was kinda disappointing. One things is .. I was very unlucky .. broke a ketchup bottle .. and then broke my glasses. Geez. My mom was the one who brought up this .. it was like 'Son, whats wrong recently? Lost ur phone battery, Broke the ketchup bottle, Broke ur glasses..later ur driving out .. better becarefull' OMG! and I was driving out soon that time .. and its at night! and its RAINING SUMMORE!! Nothing happen though.. i drove extra carefully that night. :D

And ..setbacks after setbacks.. finally the magazine that I was aiming to be published next Monday had to be delayed. Couldnt say more .. other than I'm very disappointed. I did everything right(well almost)... but its just a string of problems .. out of our hands that occurred. Sigh.

Well aside from that. Muet came out .. and I got Band 4. So much for Band 6 .. lol. Nvm .. i shud be grateful with my results. A little disappointed with my speaking and writing's result. Writing literally cause me to fall to band 4. darn.

Well. Rest in peace.Begone you evil thing.

On the bright side. Well .. parents day turned out better than expected.. alot better. I dint get into any big troubles..phew. Lol given my attitude in class sometimes i should really say I was off the hook this time =D .

Went to school the night before Parent's day to take a look at my juniors. Well they were playing this when I got there.

And yea Monday I was retired from Usst. Well it was one memorable retirement ceremony.. well the post ceremony i mean. We screamed and took photos.. alot alot of photos =D. I tell u.. not one batch in the past and I believe not one batch in the future will be as crazy as our Usst exco batch.. LOL. Crazy gang of ppl.

Ya think this is crazy? There are tons of photos thats worse.lol

Also met up with childhood frens and we chatted the night away .. or late night .. too bad its school day.. or else i believe we would continue on till midnight .. haha. Also ate maggi Goreng.

yeap, The maggi goreng face.

Yeah also got my phone back. FINALLY.
Anyway .. its another week of no internet and more studying.

Break is over. Time to start drilling my brain again.

It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking
That never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying
That never learns to live

Week 1.

Maximum Deprivation

Deprived of internet is harder than I thought. For once loneliness felt so real. For once I can't download songs i like, movies too .. also i'm disconnected from the world's information hub. Google. GOOGLE!!

Awwww... tats sounds emo doesnt it? LOL.

*cough cough*

Okay.. IM GOING NUTS WITHOUT INTERNET!!

IT JUST SEEMS I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT IT!! GRAWWR

(thunderstorms and at background)

now onlining in school to check mail. Of to tuition. GAH

2more days. TWO MORE FRIGGING DAYS.

Btw. Muet is out. Aih. FML. :(

Faith

its believing without seeing.

This weekend, having faith really did saved my butt!! LOL. Never thought that clinging on to certain principles and believing it could save me from trouble. TWICE!! :D

Anyway. Its one heck of a weekend. Let me summarize in words. ToyStory 3D, Rugby, Football, Swimming, Watch Argentina getting trashed:( ,Football & Swimming again. Physically dead tired right now. Not to mention pain! =.=

Rugby was awesome.. I had fun carrying the ball and sprint my life out to the finishing line. But I dint made it .. LiYong tackled me from behind. Felt like I got hit by a train ..lol.
Watched ToyStory in 3D too!! My eyes damn pain though. Also MAJOR SPOILER! BuzzLightyear can speak Spanish!! LOL!! He is the funniest in this episode.

Also went to Akamomiji with family for dinner on Friday. Parents ordered more than usual and I really are till I almost burst.(they are very familiar with the dishes there aldi coz they always date there.lol) I found one of the dishes introduced by my dad amusing. Its baby crabs.. or mini crabs.

You can eat it with one big bite. But its kinda spiky & Crunchy too! To those who likes crunchy stuffs.. You gotta try this.

And the latest word cup let down. For me la. Argentina lost to Germany. >.<
1st was, Brazil! WHY!?
Then now, WTH ARGENTINA!!*Dnt cry for me Argentina melodies in back ground*

Had McD at Kelvin's place to watch worldcup.. We cheered louder than those in mamak.. really awesome! haha.

Yeah yeah .. fly the flag

But I gotta say .. German performance was solid tat night. Very solid. And Argentina was like they lost their color or mojo tat night. Specially Messi and the GoalKeeper at the 3rd minute.. he was literally watching the ball rolling into the goal. Starring death in the eyes.

Past is connected to future through the present. At this very moment, at every moment, you are choosing to carry on the past with all its troubles on your shoulders, OR to let it go and see bright future pull your forward. Choose wisely.

P/s: Well. This would be my post for the week. I wnt be able to online from Monday till Friday.

Louisiana Saturday Night

Well, you get down the fiddle and you get down the bow
Kick off your shoes and you throw 'em on the floor
Dance in the kitchen 'til the mornin' light,
Louisiana Saturday night!

Waiting in the front yard sitting on a log,
A single shot rifle and a one eyed dog.
Yonder come my kinfolk, in the moonlight
Louisiana Saturday night!

Well, you get down the fiddle and you get down the bow
Kick off your shoes and you throw 'em on the floor
Dance in the kitchen 'til the morning light,
Louisiana Saturday night!

My brother Bill and my other brother Jack,
Belly full o' beer and a possum in a sack.
Fifteen kids in the front porch light,
Louisana Saturday night!

When your kinfolks leave and the kids get fed,
Me an' my woman gonna slip off to bed.
Have a little fun when we turn off the light,
Louisiana Saturday night!

Well, you get down the fiddle and you get down the bow
Kick off your shoes and you throw 'em on the floor
Dance in the kitchen 'til the morning light,
Louisiana Saturday night!

Yeah, you get down the fiddle and you get down the bow
Kick off your shoes and you throw 'em on the floor
Dance in the kitchen 'til the morning light,
Louisiana Saturday night!

You get down the fiddle and you get down the bow
Kick off your shoes and you throw 'em on the floor
Dance in the kitchen 'til the morning light,
Louisiana Saturday night!..

An awesome song by non-other than Mel McDaniel.
Well.. this song might be from a the last generation(or a few generations ago).
But its special. I have so much memories of this song embedded within me.
And I believe a handful does share this =D


Oh one last thing.

This is being SENTIMENTAL. Not EMO you dumb tarts who couldnt differentiate between these two. kthxbai & get a life.