Send me away

with the words of a love song.

Finally, my comfy bed, awesome family and spectacular food.Ipoh is still the best. Well, of course it could be a little boring on and offs since quite alot of people has started studying. 

It seems it's always at night when my thoughts would just drift away. For this moment, I am thinking bout what my dad ask just yesterday night over dinner. When am I gonna get married? Actually he asked when is he gonna get to see his grandchild.. but yeah that was wayyy too far ahead. 

Kinda think of it, I always gave ppl a random number when ppl did ask me bout it. 25 was what I said, but I never really did put much thought into it, and even now I am still single(kinda sound desperate don't I? LOL). I am 20, and if i really wanted to be married by 25.. that is just 5 years left. And in 10years time I would hit 30. Damn that is fast. 

It's like life is moving at the speed of light when we start thinking about it

Well mayb, just maybe it's really time to put some thoughts into what I am looking for in life. What my goals are, and then also find someone who share the dream as I do, instead of getting hoo-ha over any girl I am attracted to.

 Hopefully the dawn would wake me from the slumber at the right timing.

Truth is, I have mostly figured out what I wanna do in life already. Well, mostly I suppose.

BBQ-ed

literally. 

So after finished with my finals for the sem I stayed back in Nilai.. combating the severe homesickness. Why? Cause I was gonna head down to Johor to spectate an Ultimate Frisbee competition, SDU open to be precise.

Honestly I am just a noob when it comes to sports, since my better part of my life is spent with computers and internet. Although I joined scout, I came to realize it is entirely different. Still, out of the point.

Atm i am suffering from a severe sun burn. My back hurts, face, heck.. even my lips hurts. Epic. WHY DIDNT I JUST MAN DOWN AND USE SUNBLOCK. Joke. I just have this tendency to say no to sunblock. Should better not repeat this bad habit next time.

The competition itself was an eye opener. Their strategies, skills(duh?), even the way they utilize their players. Through this trip I got a better grasp of how the game works. Well, gonna start stamina building 1st then for the free time in Ipoh. 2 weeks isn't much, but it is a good start. If I do not procrastinate of course.

Aside from being sunburned out of my right mind, I also did a lot of traveling this 4days. Short update for now. No pics, all still in Sunny.. lazy to copy'em all out.

First Dawn

Exam's over. Now next stop Johor Bahru. After that will be my long missed hometown. Damn I miss my family/home/town/room/car so much right now. Tonight sucky dinner just made me miss it even more. Yeah laugh and tease, I'm a homeboy..wherever I go.. wherever I am. I will miss my home, not house.. home! :)

Also, gonna start to build up my stamina. Swimming + Jogging. I do hope I am not procrastinating. I always make grand plans, but not everyone is done.

Also debating whether should I go to Pangkor or not. Hmmm ... Dilemma.

The dawn, of story that would last a lifetime. I hope.

Enough Lies

I know I've always said 'Pfft exams.. so what?' then 'Exam only.. not the end of the world' or or or .. Aiya just study important points la. what ever happens will happen.

Honestly now I'm scared like crap. Epic huh?

Gonna study so hard that my brain will get muscle cramps.

Dark Clouds

that doesn't rain down meatballs. D:

Finals coming soon. Sigh at 1st I was quite confident that I can take it down with ease, after given my experience with Form 6. However, today after reading through those past year questions, it just triggered my panic button. Great. Still, if I aim to pass, I can just choose to study specific topics. However, I am better then that(hopefully). I should strive to achieve better.

After a dozen of times pulling an all nighter, I could say my coursework did came out considerably well. At least they met my minimum requirement. And yeah.. they shall come like a white knight and save my ass if should I screw up my finals.

For my group project, top score in class, Booyah!!! Please, let me be ecstatic just for a few brief sec cause never in life did I ever get the highest mark for any sort of project work in class. Thinking back now, all those moments of struggling was frigging worth it!!!

Less then 48 hours. Then I am free.

Running at the speed of sound

Away from my problems, responsibilities. But then, just a thought. I'm much better then that.

 

Lately, after some quiet time to cool down after 3 weeks of assignment rush, exam rush and trips.. I've realized that my life this 2 years has been a cycle. It consists of almost 2 phases. Good and Bad.

Coming Inti has been both tiresome and a blessing.  Life is always a bed of roses, just that roses have thorns. The almost never ending last minute surprises course work and presentations yet the friends and good people around here.

So far I'm able to keep myself from diving in into situations which would lead to complications, which is the beginning of the cycle. However recently, the balance has changed. The temptation of diving in back to the cycle has grew stronger. It is an ever present struggle, struggling against my own desires. It's like telling a vegetarian that veggie is poisonous. There are a few factors contributing to it, and of course there is already a subject. 

But this year, I'm planning on breaking that cycle. To plunge into that cycle, is to risk too much which I cannot afford. Or probably I am trying to rationalize my fears. However true that is, facts are facts. Getting involved at things like this is inappropriate at the moment. Still, a question always comes to my mind, If opportunity present itself, would I take it? I hope when I'm faced with this dilemma, the greater good of my mind can make that split second decision. 

Perhaps I took the coward way out by not man-ing up and facing it. Perhaps you never thought that I just don't wanna take my chances at all. Perhaps, I just wanna see, with zero distractions, how far exactly can I push myself. 

Well some of the photos I took when I head to Pangkor with my bros. 

Yeah and this is the 2nd attempt of shooting with a bokeh kit

 

Trying to meddle with it more but for the moment I'm just too busy. Mayb during the sembreak I can take some nice shots with it :)

Problem with me sometimes? I over think.

Oh don't know it's a blessing or a curse, I got the opportunity to present my group project to a Real company!! :D And I'm the presenter.. SHIT

By My Side - David Choi

Bumped onto this song life a few weeks ago. To be exact, I was anticipating this song since WongFu Productions released a sneak peak b4 hand. Find the MV quite interesting and deep, which is always the one of the signatures of Wongfu(others are random and funny). Still, they excel at bringing new perspective and creativity. Songs above, lyrics below. Enjoy :)
Probably gonna get some tutorial of this song from Youtube when time permits, or if i remember. This is definitely a song that I would wanna sing/play to her, when I finally meet her :).

I'm just listening to the clock go ticking,
I am waiting as the time goes by.
I think of you with every breath I take,
I need to feel your heartbeat next to mine.
You're all I see, in everything.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

All the fears you feel inside,
and all the tears you cry,
they're ending right here.
I'll heal your heart and soul;
I'll keep you oh so close.
Don't worry; I'll never let you go.
You're all I need, you're everything.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

No one else will ever do.
I got a stubborn heart for you.
Call me crazy, but its true; I love you.
I didn't think that it would be,
you have made it clear to me.
You're all I need.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

Probably gonna get some tutorial of this song from Youtube when time permits, or if i remember. This is definitely a song that I would wanna sing/play to her, when I finally meet her :).