Make or break

It's not New Year resolutions, nor big promises that make or break life, it's the innumerable small actions you take every hour that compound into a life well lived

- Facebook

P/s: I will be back.

Single

but I have no idea am I available or not.

Over and over again I have told myself, being single is very damn fun. There is no strings attached, lesser commitments, less responsibility, and definitely less issues to think about. But there comes a point in life that you will feel something is missing, even after all those outings, all those crazy nights.

I've been having that feeling for quiet sometime already. And frankly sometimes it is disturbing. I've been praying for the right one, she doesn't needs to be perfect, but of course she does needs to meet afew ticks on my list. But yeah, even if I meet the right one, will she be single? Will she even be interested to know me? I might be confident on most things, or at least looked confident. But on the most side, I'm jst putting up a strong front. Underneath that mask, there is always doubt and self questionings. 

Heck, being able to think about this is already a luxury. Usually when problems comes in life, relationship is always at the far end for me. Probably now is just the start of a new sem and life had jst slowed down a little bit for me to indulge in this matter.

Heck, probably it is just peer pressure cause ppl around me seem to be like moving on with life while I am still stagnant and still. 

Sigh, whichever it is. Or mayb it is just some slow songs at this hour alone made me feel a little bit emo. Oh wells. Life goes on and time still flies.

Wonder how my life would turn out in the coming few months. I will believe it is awesome.

And I am trying, all the best I can to be a better person. I will always take this phrase to heart, It's not all about finding the right person, It's also about being the right person. I am gonna keep believing, even though I suck at it, I am gonna have faith, that this silent prayer would be answered. Also I will believe

Love never fails. I hope.

Let what happens in the internet stays in the internet. For those who came across this, this is just Me speaking my mind. Which I tend to do alot on the internet realm.

Heart pounding

Deep slow breathes. Steady hands. Firm grip on the Disc. Get my head in the game.

Quoted frm 'Six billion freaks in this world Apr 27, 2010'

Back to Ipoh, to my warm family, to my comfy bed. Now gonna continue what I have been doing. Endurance training and Jogging. The trick is to keep my mind fresh and steady even though my heart is pounding at thousands of beats per min.

Competition is one month away, though I'm not sure whether am I qualified into the junior team or if there is a junior team, I am gonna give my best. At least I can see how much I can achieve in one month. No slowing down, no skipping days, no procrastination.

I'm just dreaming out loud.

The photos is taken from one of my previous blogpost. I edited it a lil more. Kinda really like this photo.

It's been awhile since I literally fallen down, and it's been awhile i've taken 'when you fall down, get back up and walk again' literally. My knee does hurt like crap thou D:

Life as we know it

Just a usual night. Frisbee, then vcammed a guy shaving his beard, drank a weirdly addictive tea at an arabian shop house, stayed up almost all night chatting there, went to friends place to watch movies and here I am.

Maybe I forgot to mention bout it, but life is Inti is crazy sometimes & occasionally epic. Raya week break, can't wait to go back home.

Contingency

I ponder deeply sometimes, what If I my contingency plan was not valid and I am forced to follow my original plan. Of course, because of the luxury of being able to choose, I did not pursue my vry 1st plan with guns ablazing. For one, If I wasn't given a choice, I would only start my studies in a months time, or now if I am extremely lucky. Or, I might be going to Kampar take the cheapest course available get a degree, come out and start building my career. But no, I was given a choice to choose beyond all this. And here I am, in Inti Nilai, 1 semester later and semester 2 is about to start tomorrow.

But now, having to fall back on my contingency plan, I already have too much to loose. If should I fail, money would be wasted, time and my future would be bleak as ever. If should I end up failing, in my household there is only me to take care of my parents. So the pressure is pretty intense when I think about it, but usually I steer clear of this thought.

Tomorrow would be the day I enroll. And right now I'm just chilling in my room in Inti.( actually I am bored to death hence explains blogging.lol ). Can't wait to go flick(frisbee) actually = ="

Stop for a minute

and smile :)

Good bye for now. It has been good and well, but this 3 weeks made me realize that there is more important things in life to pay attention to. Good bye for the moment, and I will promise I will be back. And when I am back, I will never be the same. I will be better. More than that, I will be ready.

Never stop believing

Oh! and finally updated the song list in my blog. Enjoy :D

Hardwork

It pays off. 

Those night staying awake to finish off the assignments, those hours spending in the classroom being a good boy by paying attention(i tried), the non-stop study marathon 2 days before exam and before exam. It was worth it, every single second of the torment is worth it. And I've even got a bonus, I got more then I expected. *hands waves on air*

Suffice to say, my very 1st time getting an A- in like 3years. Daebak!!

Gonna do better next semester, Hwaiting!!