Away away away

Where dreams was once made of sea water and soft sands.

And yes, My very 1st proper picture of a bird. And it's a Hornbill.
 

Mays, or Maybes.

As a new month sets in, guess I am on different grounds now. Officially, I am into my 2nd year of studies. Time sure pass by fast.

I am quite distressed at the moment. Filled with anxiety and insecurities. Sem Break always gave me loads of time to think. But maybe I've been thinking too much. I've been planning too much for the future, and for that I've jeopardize my experience of the present.

I wish to be a child again sometimes, without a world to face but just the embrace of my parents. I wish to be as naive as a kid again, I would do better without those blardy two faced bitches and sons of bitches. But time has always been true and unkind. It never lies and it never waits.

I am gonna start letting things go. Let things just ride by it's own. I've been holding on to ideologies and concepts to the point of being dogmatic. It's hard, but it's time to open up my mind. I might go back to being my old self, but they said admitting is the 1st step of change.

There's always a child in us.

Yes. I screwed up. I made things complicated. Perhaps I am too blinded by what I wanted to fully realize whats best for everyone. Perhaps, I was at that heat of the moment, selfish. Perhaps, that wasn't even the right one at all.

I'll wait. By faith I believe, someday when the time is right, things will fall into it's place.

Bumped on this song when i was going through Joel's song collection.

Conversation with the Stars by Brightwood

My love, I'll wait for you
Will you wait for me?
Mmm-mmm-mmm

For now, I'll make believe
I'm a knight, riding to your castle
Mmm-mmm-mmm

I'm almost there

I went to a hillside
Laid down with the stars
I heard a cricket's love song
But nothing of you

Laid awake countless nights thinking
What you might be like
Out of an ocean of faces
Have I met your eyes?

Roof Party.

Perhaps I think too much.

and now

Time to switch off the thinking part of my brain. And just enjoy life for the next 3 weeks :D

Holidayssssssss

Sembreak. Now gonna start scrapping that holiday to do list.


P/s: Guess I've stopped blogging that frequent eh. Planning to change the layout and make this an official photography blog.

3rd time's the charm?

A blink of an eye and i'm coming to a close of my 3rd sem. Time sure flies faster this time around. Anyways, here we go,

Finals. 

Thank God my course work marks is better than expected. :D

Reality hits

My heart sank when I saw what I saw. Literally. I was busy that night, but seeing what I saw, I just stopped everything and sat down, looking at the monitor screen, at lost. I've never felt this way for a very long long time. 

But turns out, it was unreal. How ironic it is that the events of unreal actually hits you with reality. Guess from now on, I shall take this a little more seriously. I still believe in right timing, taking things slow blah blah, but from now on, I would take hold of any opportunity I can get. I am, as my own self, unwilling to give up without a fight.

anyways.

Enough of that jiwang ish post. Last weekend went for Nottingham Ultimate Open. I was in the main team(considering they only sent one team) for the 1st time in my life. However, I did not perform to my expectations. I could've done so much better, so much more, and less of those simple dumb mistakes. But I did not. I would not give myself the excuse that I was 'off form'. That's bullshit. I should be better than that.

Due to me, unable to outrun my markers, unable to catch up with my markers, made simple throw mistakes, bad decisions, and as well, no pivots. I think I have to really work on that. I did do some good passes, but then that should already be a norm. Not to set high expectations, but I did improved abit. Now I am stuck. Guess I have pump in again twice the effort to move up this barrier. 

Still, it was a good game. Did not reached our aim of top 3 thou. Instead we ended up at 9th placing, or winner in looser pool. Pics credit to the photographers(dont know who they are). 

The team

Disc Catching!

When bad became worse

Been a tough week. Really. I know I told myself not to complain cause some others might got it worse than me, but I guess I am near my limits.

4days of 7 tests and 2 assignments. It is literally a fun deprived week. And the pressure of upcoming competition lingering. It is maddening. Then, tonight. Bah, I don't even wanna speak about it.

Still, stay strong. Keep it together and frigging move on. This is what the world expect all the unlucky others to do anyway.