First Dawn

Exam's over. Now next stop Johor Bahru. After that will be my long missed hometown. Damn I miss my family/home/town/room/car so much right now. Tonight sucky dinner just made me miss it even more. Yeah laugh and tease, I'm a homeboy..wherever I go.. wherever I am. I will miss my home, not house.. home! :)

Also, gonna start to build up my stamina. Swimming + Jogging. I do hope I am not procrastinating. I always make grand plans, but not everyone is done.

Also debating whether should I go to Pangkor or not. Hmmm ... Dilemma.

The dawn, of story that would last a lifetime. I hope.

Enough Lies

I know I've always said 'Pfft exams.. so what?' then 'Exam only.. not the end of the world' or or or .. Aiya just study important points la. what ever happens will happen.

Honestly now I'm scared like crap. Epic huh?

Gonna study so hard that my brain will get muscle cramps.

Dark Clouds

that doesn't rain down meatballs. D:

Finals coming soon. Sigh at 1st I was quite confident that I can take it down with ease, after given my experience with Form 6. However, today after reading through those past year questions, it just triggered my panic button. Great. Still, if I aim to pass, I can just choose to study specific topics. However, I am better then that(hopefully). I should strive to achieve better.

After a dozen of times pulling an all nighter, I could say my coursework did came out considerably well. At least they met my minimum requirement. And yeah.. they shall come like a white knight and save my ass if should I screw up my finals.

For my group project, top score in class, Booyah!!! Please, let me be ecstatic just for a few brief sec cause never in life did I ever get the highest mark for any sort of project work in class. Thinking back now, all those moments of struggling was frigging worth it!!!

Less then 48 hours. Then I am free.

Running at the speed of sound

Away from my problems, responsibilities. But then, just a thought. I'm much better then that.

 

Lately, after some quiet time to cool down after 3 weeks of assignment rush, exam rush and trips.. I've realized that my life this 2 years has been a cycle. It consists of almost 2 phases. Good and Bad.

Coming Inti has been both tiresome and a blessing.  Life is always a bed of roses, just that roses have thorns. The almost never ending last minute surprises course work and presentations yet the friends and good people around here.

So far I'm able to keep myself from diving in into situations which would lead to complications, which is the beginning of the cycle. However recently, the balance has changed. The temptation of diving in back to the cycle has grew stronger. It is an ever present struggle, struggling against my own desires. It's like telling a vegetarian that veggie is poisonous. There are a few factors contributing to it, and of course there is already a subject. 

But this year, I'm planning on breaking that cycle. To plunge into that cycle, is to risk too much which I cannot afford. Or probably I am trying to rationalize my fears. However true that is, facts are facts. Getting involved at things like this is inappropriate at the moment. Still, a question always comes to my mind, If opportunity present itself, would I take it? I hope when I'm faced with this dilemma, the greater good of my mind can make that split second decision. 

Perhaps I took the coward way out by not man-ing up and facing it. Perhaps you never thought that I just don't wanna take my chances at all. Perhaps, I just wanna see, with zero distractions, how far exactly can I push myself. 

Well some of the photos I took when I head to Pangkor with my bros. 

Yeah and this is the 2nd attempt of shooting with a bokeh kit

 

Trying to meddle with it more but for the moment I'm just too busy. Mayb during the sembreak I can take some nice shots with it :)

Problem with me sometimes? I over think.

Oh don't know it's a blessing or a curse, I got the opportunity to present my group project to a Real company!! :D And I'm the presenter.. SHIT

By My Side - David Choi

Bumped onto this song life a few weeks ago. To be exact, I was anticipating this song since WongFu Productions released a sneak peak b4 hand. Find the MV quite interesting and deep, which is always the one of the signatures of Wongfu(others are random and funny). Still, they excel at bringing new perspective and creativity. Songs above, lyrics below. Enjoy :)
Probably gonna get some tutorial of this song from Youtube when time permits, or if i remember. This is definitely a song that I would wanna sing/play to her, when I finally meet her :).

I'm just listening to the clock go ticking,
I am waiting as the time goes by.
I think of you with every breath I take,
I need to feel your heartbeat next to mine.
You're all I see, in everything.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

All the fears you feel inside,
and all the tears you cry,
they're ending right here.
I'll heal your heart and soul;
I'll keep you oh so close.
Don't worry; I'll never let you go.
You're all I need, you're everything.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

No one else will ever do.
I got a stubborn heart for you.
Call me crazy, but its true; I love you.
I didn't think that it would be,
you have made it clear to me.
You're all I need.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

Probably gonna get some tutorial of this song from Youtube when time permits, or if i remember. This is definitely a song that I would wanna sing/play to her, when I finally meet her :). 

Finals in .... Erm ....

2 weeks. TWO WEEKS. 

It's been 7 weeks since I've entered my Uni Life. And I'm about to finish my course. So much learned in so little time. All in all, I'm just glad life has been turning out the way it was :)

Know that Life is to be lived, not explained - David Story

The Last Page

Two Sundays ago I tried recalling, was it during May or March. I stood there, unable to remember it. Time does heals, cause time erodes away memories. Later on I did remember however..LOL

I am not clinging on to the past however, neither am I fighting to forget it, it's a futile attempt. I've made peace with it instead, admitting that it was one inevitable event that from it, I gain so much more, from it for better or for worst, I changed. For this particular night, I just decided to take a trip to my past. For this last bit, I am gonna post it up here before this part erodes as well.


It will be a movie, where we will watch. It depicts of a fairy tale. Illogical and Unreasonable shrouds it. As how I am conflicted within myself between my intuition and my logical reasoning I decided to follow my heart's whisper.

After a stroll down the fantasy land, I would take you to the corner where we 1st met. 7years of memories in that corner and the two years you were there was the best years I had. Then I will bring you into a room, where there would be candles and rose petals.

Then I would let you know how you had decorated my world, and how much goodness you brought into me. I would tell you that I want you to always be part of my world. I would tell you I will always stay up all night long just so I be the one to wake you up and stay way past my bedtime just so I can hear you stop crying. And I will tell you those 3 words that was all but too common but I never spoken off it to anyone other then my parents.

All that was planned however, was left in a standstill. The candles remained in my car on that day, the rose petals remained with the florist. For being so vulnerable and to open such doors was never attempted in my life. Something that I decided to not go ahead with it after what I heard of the day before.

Then I told myself. I was lucky, I almost made the biggest mistake in my life.

The ripple effect

Barely 2 and a half months ago I was shown a video by Enjun. I've even posted it up on my blog . From then on, I aspire to capture what it was in that video. 

I changed a lens, did literally tried making a DIY bokeh slide(It was usable, but fragile). Eventually, I asked Enjun to buy it. So.. now. after almost 75days.. 

TADAA!!!!

 

The bokeh effect

I just got hold of this kit and this was a test shot. Hopefully more interesting shots would come around in time. I need to be a the right place and the right time for nice shots thou. Which is essentially not easy. Did some test vid shots wif it as well, find it quite satisfying :D

anyways. Got back from a long day and I didnt even sleep. Epic. And the day is just about to start.. Epic x2