What can I...?

Its just a simple phrase
Every moment it went through my mind
Its a phrase that cures the brokens of a heart
And saved a million souls

The phrase that makes,
Hopeless to Hopefull
Sadness to Shouting joy
Human to Superhuman

Yet those moments I'm choked up by this phrase
Like a stone in my throat it just wont come out
Saying it might solve all my problems
Saying it might let loose hell on me
Saying it might bring me a dream come true

What can I think?
When you are always in my mind planting roses
What can I sing?
When you are the best part in my song
What can I say?
When your name will always slip off my mouth

Let loose my self to come close to you
Like a broken soul that found its long lost body
But you never realize how I felt
And at the end I get all the gain and pain

The burden is not for one to take but it needs one more
Ran from my self dare not face this burden
Blame myself for letting loose myself
Curse myself for not thinking carefully

Running around from my self in a circle under the rain
Going nowhere achieving nothing
But you came and make me stand still
Gave me the courage to face my true self

You gave me a reason to sing in the Rain
You gave me a reason to laugh at the Storm
Now, please give me a reason to Hope
That dreams can come true...


-J.mes-

RaiN - Breaking Benjamin

Take a photograph,
It'll be the last,
Not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here,

I don't have a past
I just have a chance,
Not a family or honest plea remains to say,

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Is it you I want,
Or just the notion
Of a heart to wrap around so I can find my way around

Safe to say from here,
You're getting closer now,
We are never sad cause we are not allowed to be

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

To lie here under you,
Is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
To lie here under you is all that i could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

P/S: bloody rain blocking my sun

It's not The End

Thurs Morning woke up went to school at approx 9am
Was very nervous and anxious
For those who dont know.. i may look like i'm cool and calm like a dead log..but inside me i'm a ticking time-bom waiting to explode..
Results are suppose to come out at 10.30 but like typical Malaysian way of working things it was delayed till 11 and later on till 11.30
The few students who get "god like" results are announced on stage and praised by everyone
All clapped their hands as their names were called out .. they earned it
Chatted with frens as we waited and when it reach 11 something .. things are getting more tensed
I remember how hard and fast my heart's beating as if its trying to jump out frm my body
That moment when I got my results .. I checked if I passed all my subjects and yea was a little relief that I did.. after I start looking for the As
Somehow I wasnt happy with wat i've got ..was somehow expecting more
Was pretty unhappy with what I get...just simply unhappy
Its not that I'm afraid that my future will be affected
Is just that I expected my self to do better and get a better result than this crap
But then its not The End with a foot stop.. life still goes on and dwelling in this dissapointment will do me no good..
Thanks to a few people for ur encouragement and stuffs.
Will be going down to KL this weekend ... hope to get my self a pair of new shoes

P/S: I may be unhappy with my result, But i'm content that I got just enough...

Here Comes the Rain again, falling from the Stars

No doubt if you pay attention to the weather its been raining this 2 days
Sunday we had watergames in youth
at the 1st round I was doing video shooting, All of them were briefed clearly that I must not be shot
However that msg just dint went through their head and I end up running for cover..lol
Actually I ran into the middle of the warzone to "capture the moment" XD
It was amusing watching how the 2 teams fight against each other...
At 1st their walk in formation ... like 300 , wah very yeng right?
But once meet face to face, All hell broke loose...
Forget bout strategy, Forget bout the flag, just start shooting
Even the refrees were not spared from this "wonderfull" fate
Sadly when it reached my turn to play the rain starts falling...
but the opposite team decided to play anyways and we went around shooting each other
I just grab a watergun and start shooting everyone's face in the field
It just feels so good, especially when u sneak behind them .. muahahahaha
Get real wet as the rain gets heavier..
at night gt a real bad flu and I was half dead .. thanks to only 10 hours of sleep in 3 days

Slept till Monday morning wake up, Dj called me to go Jusco, said no transport then doze off again till afternoon when dj call and say they coming to pick me up to jusco with kevin, dj, v-tjen, julian to give out kidsgame forms
I was a feeling a little blue today and dint really confront everyone to give out the forms... later went to get my haircut...Finally!!! I really go get a hair cut ... after like 3-4 months..
Well..so much for now , Thursday is judgement day ... and probably .. Friday might be another judgement day.. feel like doing this right now

Yeah..I'm in that position right now... all that's left to do is to wake up the bear
I might do it , I might not
Mayb tis week , mayb never
It mayb my worst mistake
It mayb a dream come true

A passage from the Link I intro frm the last post
Cancerians never go directly after what they want. Their strategy is to move in every direction but straight ahead. They'll play this shifting game indefinitely, until it looks as if someone else is about to grab the prize. Then the cards are played quickly and cleverly-Cancer lunges forward, takes hold firmly, and refuses to let go.

This is Stupid, This is Foolish, yet This is Me
P/s: Sry again for a long post with Few pictures and MANY words. XP

Its a Fact

Thx to Enjun he gave me this webpage which depicts the personality of a person for a specific horoscope...
And NO...this aint those cheap old newspaper or magazine bullshit
this the real deal .. they really do some research on it
I read thru mine... and its .. 90% accurate..
But the post is really long .. so be patient as you read
this the LINK
http://mizian.com.ne.kr/englishwiz/library/names/zodiac/cancer.htm#_Toc6671994

You dont need to believe everything it says
Everyone is different
and
I am so free I read others as well
You can too ... if ur free
and yea..Good Luck to those who are taking their exams on the coming weeks
and also to those who are gonna take their Results

P/s: you aint a Superwoman, You are the Perfectwoman....

Why so serious

Okay...time to blog something since the tag, well...I hav less than 1 week to find out my SPM result..and i'm not really chilling knowing the deadline
I also decided to join the Kidsgame as part of the multimedia crew
The multimedia crew is also responsible to promote kidsgame
and coming soon a multimeda class will be organized
which hopefully will include
1.sound recording
2.photoshop designing
3.video editing and recording
Let's hope this will come to past

And recently i dont really know wats got into me
I'm like so serious and so stressed for pratically no reason
Even lost me enthusiasm to laugh when a joke is being told

I also watched slumdog Millianare
Scored 10/10 if u ask me, the way they present the movie and storyline is good
and how it switches to the boys past and present is wonderfull
A movie with comedy, romance, action and education
Its the entire package in it

不知为何,我爱上你

那可是我最大的错误

你是我的晴天 也是我的雨天

少了你我的天就一篇空百

我只想让你知道,我爱你

我好蠢,我很笨,我爱你

若爱你是错,我愿错下去

我不想望了爱你的感觉

那独一无二世上最美妙的感觉

好不容易 才能多爱一天

-J.Mes-

Tagged = .=

001. Real name →James Chang Jian Hui
002. Nickname(s)→Fei Mao, Cat, Fat Cat, Pyjames, Ah chang, Orange, P-man, and so on..
004. Zodiac sign → Cancer
005. Male or female → male
006. Elementary → Kinderland
007. Middle School →S.R.J.K.(C) Samtet
008. High School-> S.M.K Samtet
009. College School --> Still choosing
010. Hair color → Opposite of White
011. Long or short → Long
012. Loud or Quiet → Both..depends on the places
013. Sweats or Jeans → jeans
014. Phone or Camera → I want BOTH
015. Health freak → not even abit
016. Drink or Smoke? → Drink on occasions
017. Do you have a crush on someone? Yes, So what?
018. Eat or Drink → Both
019. Piercings → NO
020. Tattoos → Got one in my butt, Hell NO

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → I said NO
024. First best friend → TanBooYeong
025. First award → I recall is "Joker of the year"
026. First crush → If you don't know is who, its for your own good
027. First pet → A pair of turtles
028. First big vacation → When I was 12 years old
030. First big birthday → Forget

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → no
050. Drinking → no
052. I'm about to → Eat and Drink
053. Listening to → Love Story-Taylor Swift
054. Plans for today → 1.Wake up 2.Stay alive 3.Go to bed
055. Waiting for → Dinner

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? → at least 3 better still if its twins
059. Want to get married? → OF COURSE!
060. Careers in mind → Pastor, Director of a Movie, Professional Software writer, Computer hardware Engineer

WHICH IS BETTER IN THE BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE?
068. Lips or eyes → Both but more to Lips
070. Shorter or taller? → Is the same
072. Romantic or spontaneous → Both but more Romantic
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → Arms
074. Sensitive or loud→ A little of both
075. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship
076. Trouble maker or hesitant → NO to BOTH

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → Constantly
081. Ran away from home → once
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense → Its not a knife, we call it PARANG
083. Killed somebody → Almost everyday in my pc
084. Broken someone's heart → Yes
085. Been arrested → NO
087. Cried when someone died → ThankGod, nobody yet

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → Yes
090. Miracles → Yes, and hoping for one
091. Love at first sight → Yes
092. Heaven → of course
093. Santa Claus → Yes, is he from south or north pole?
094 Tooth Fairy--> Just once, then I find out its fake, coz my fallen teeth dint turn to RM1
095. Kiss on the first date -> Depends

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now →Yes
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → No, but i'm content
099. Do you believe in God → you bet

100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people→

I tag YOU if you have nothing to post about