Of sorrow and laughters.. it makes it all right :)

Long post ahead, PROCEED WITH CAUTION

Flashing back ~~~~

The 1st quarter of this year was .. somewhat .. the most drastic changes ever happened.
Was occupied at Work.. non-stop work during Jan & Feb. Then met up with a near death experience in a car accident just 2 weeks before my driving test. I still remember all of us standing under the rain.. shocked stunned.. and I still hold my breathe once awhile thinking back I've live through it.

During March I was busy preparing and helping out in my church organized 'Kidsgame' which is mainly for kids. Also at the end of that month.. I made a terrible move/mistake to a person thats really costly & jeopardized our friendship. I was really foolish back then.. & I am really sorry, really hope we can be friends again like we used to. March, was without a doubt the turning point of this year.. cause jst too many things happened, I was simply overwhelmed & disappointed with myself. Cause of the sudden changes.. I was rendered lifeless for a following few months & also passionless..It was as if my living world has turned black and white.

Then during April I was cherished an opportunity to take a break from everything & escape to HongKong with my mom and her friend. Had an insane shopping spree there @.@. Also spent time with my brothers and also was in a dilemma to choose where to study.

During May.. I entered into Form 6. Which is a last minute decision & I remember I whispered to myself that I will take another few months to consider before leaving next year. Little did I knw.. it dint materealize.

Celebrated my bday during June and also got sick for almost 2 weeks..with occasion got better today then sick again tomoro.

On July, Grandma passed away on the very night my school band got Champion for their state competition. Also, bid goodbye to Enjun that had further his studies in America. Bro, still remember the surprise we gave you?? HAHA... It was a memorable experience. ;) Nt forsaking, also had our vry 1st class outing that month and every1 enjoyed themselves. And ofc, got myself into Usst. At that time, I felt weird getting into there.. not knowing practically any1 there.

August, I trashed my Wira hardcore leaving it to be fixed for 3 months. Also got my new saga which was confirmed during July..& had our class's 2nd outing. Then at the end of the month.. attended my church's family camp. August will forever leave a mark in my life..to never drive fast at sharp corners.. xD.

September swoops in and also marks another month of tight schedules and no rest policy. Class practice gotten intense and tensions among classmates had risen to the breaking point with the clash of ideas & also different view points for out 6th form night performance. Also, Melvin broke his leg that month .. and he can't walk for a month. An unexpected tragedy.

October a.k.a the season of exams.. where ppl are havin PMR, studyin for Stpm/spm & also trials. Thus that month being quite dull & lifeless as most of my time I've spent locking myself in my room .. studying. However after exam, without taking a break, I was immediately thrown into a world of pain, preparing for the 6th form night... a non-stop labour for one whole week, day and night.

As November sets in, I was asked to do a small part of our class presentation. Speaking to a crowd is not that hard...all u need is preparation & a cool head. Also went to Pangkor to survey campsite for the usst camp & was occupied making preparations for the Usst camp. With no doubt, I would say that I've got back on my feet & started running .. totally leaving behind the past.. where it should be.. BEHIND.

December started off with the Usst camp.. which I considered it as a success cause everything went quite smoothly. Camp was fun.. and not to mention tiring. Also get to knw the fellow usst excos better. Also December is full of colours and fun :) (yumcha, basketball, outings .. & so on) Was also occupied with the Christmas drama my church organized. Also not to mention, met with a small accident, thx to my phone ringing at the wrong moment.

This year's lost.. was the greatest
yet, this year's gains..was also the greatest
This year, I experienced what is like being alone
Nonetheless, I survived & gotten much more independent
Let life be as it should be, full of surprises, full of mysteries
Shit happens even we least needed it
But live on with life.. for in time things will get better.
I found 'Ms.Right'.. its the vry one piece of puzzle tht fits perfectly into the picture.Oh well.. what next?

it's been one heck of a rollercoaster ride, & its time to say goodbye.Next year will be a better one, I'm sure of it.

Remnants of 2009

The usual simple minded me, running from the inevitable

time , responsibility & ....

Celebrated 2 of my friends birthday yesterday.. which means 2 birthday cake in one day. 1st was fellow usst-ian Yong Kar leng a.k.a Pn.Tsia. Don't even mind asking whats her age..ahahaha.

had the biggest k-box room in the entire Jusco (i think).

u can see tht she is happy/shocked/whatever

(psst, cause the cake vry big mar..:P)

Then after singing for a few hours went straight for Melvin's bday. Yeap he had waited a long long time for this .. bet he yelled to himself that he is finally legal ..XD

the cake is too small, so he dint smile widely..oh well..life aint fair :P

P/s:blah .. so much for now.. Long post might coming soon.. get ur specs and eyemore ready.

Times up

2 days to 2010. The fact is, I am not looking forward to next year.. I knw it sounds dumb & foolish, but wat the heck? I thought myself what am I gonna need to deal with next year and without a split second I am beset by anxiety and worries..Some are academics, some are personal goals, some are normal routines, and also not leaving out personal stuffs..next year is gonna be a challenging one(isnt it always?). I've been troubled by this thought for days.. almost a week..which makes me stressed out/depress/emo a lil on times & also insomnia.. lucky I got this blog here to spit out my worries on times or else I could really explode into gazillion pieces.

Okay, felt much better.. Now onto the real stuff :P

2 days ago met up with my 2nd family. That gang of ppl tat went through all sorts of hell & insanity together for the past few years together in scouting. Only one is missing..The now america/malaysian Enjun.. but still He dint get left out, we contacted him via Skype :D

We had an open air steambot this time.. an unique experience and was vry lucky tat it dint rain..After that played card games at around1am. Penalty of loosing was to drink a can of Carlsberg. Well.. sounds easy.. Not for me= =. I am almost zero alcohol resistant.
Pictures followed. Vry few pics cause I was lazy to take..will try to get it soon.
Well, after gulping down a can of Carls my face went srsly red within 10minutes.. then soon I felt my heart pounding really hard.. I can feel it pound.. literally. Still I am not drunk.. its jst my body aint used to beer. Half way through the game, Jason found out that the beer we are drinking had all past the expiry date.. =o= . We're all .. somehow stunned for a few seconds..And its too late cause that time I think he is drinking the last can .. LOL.

Then today, spent some quality with Dad learning to make his banana cake. Reason? Well I just figured next time when I am left alone in home I can at least cook up something for myself instead of the usual packet rice or maggi mee...made 3 cakes.. 1st cake i was still takin my nap, 2nd was observing, 3rd self made :D(with some guidance ofc). Its nt as hard as I figured.. Mix this mix that.. add this add that ... throw it into the oven.. 45minutes later~

Ta-daa!!! :D

At least the I dint bake out a monster cake that comes after my head..

When no one is there to wipe ur tears, I would hold u for a million years.

I knw clearly u wont make up ur mind, But I swear I would do u no wrong.
I am naive, foolish, shallow, simple minded, Never comprehending the complications of relationships.
I falled twice and you came around, Tempting me to risk it Thrice.
You werent in my book when we 1st met, Now ur from the 1st page till the last.
I see sunset in ur eyes.. And I would pursue it with utmost sincerity.
All I need is that u let down ur pride, ur principles, and ur walls, for once.
Just as I did without my self knowing.

-midnight rants-

P/s:Well at least one of my holidays goals accomplished :)
P/s/s:Insomnia-ing again .. wth

I see you?

the Key chain

The above pic is the surprise gift frm a few frens. Actually kinda like it .. and thx for it.. will 'use' it wisely in the future.. :P

A weird case scenario recently that afew of my friends are having relationship problems >.<

Love, softens even the strongest of heart

Love, let it in and you will never want it out

It suffocates and makes it hard to breath

Love, Even the wisest of man cant comprehend it to the fullest

It, brings the best out of an ordinary person
It also brings out the worst...

Love, makes running an extra mile easy
& running another hundred miles alot easier

It, changes a persons principle,
even those they uphold with utmost loyalty

You could never feel more alive than being engulf by it
...or not

Love, it does not hate

It doesnt envy nor jealous

It, turns your world around literally

It breaks and it heals

It changes people, then the world

-love happens-

P/s: Drank alcoholic drink the night before and still felt I'm nt sober yet till midafternoon
P/s/s: and the weather today is just so friggin hot. :(
P/s/s/s: dont get any funny ideas = =

Last year was a mistake

This Year, to save me from tears
I'm giving it to someone who appreciates it.
Seems my body's metabolism had gone totally haywire. Finally took a break and had a slow day .. then took a nap only to end up with Flu and Fever.. >.<

so about my Christmas ...
( its only words with no pics at all so, if ur nt fond of reading do urself a favor & go sit at the corner there :P )

Alarm woke me up in the morning. And I was actually pissed to acknowledge the fact that I was awaken by an alarm clock even during Christmas.. whats worse I already overslept. With haste I bathed, packed my equipments & clothes and rushed of to church for rehearsals. Spent my entire day there working on some finishing touches on my video which I failed to complete the night before although I tried struggling into late night/early dawn and also ran through the full dress rehearsal. I dint perform well during rehearsals with still doing some stupid/careless mistakes. So fingers crossed and hope that I won't screw up at the real deal. Then later in the evening met with a small accident that actually left me a little traumatized.

Later that evening, before everything starts, while doing a last minute check through the church PC suddenly got into a bad mood and decided to restart itself on 2 occasions, where 1 is just before singing carols. Which actually shock the living soul out of me. Said my prayers and crossed my fingers I can only hope the PC wont restart during the drama. Had to blame myself though for reluctance to prepare a back up laptop and put the entire drama at stake. So I had to deal with the fact that the PC might restart without a warning even while playing a video, whats worse my brain start piecing out worst case scenarios which cause my heart to pound like there is no tomoro and left me at the brink of a nervous breakdown through the entire drama. Well .. thankfully everything went well whilst I still did some minor mistakes. After the last video clip finish rolling without a flaw, instead of cheering with the crowd I collapsed back at my chair and took a deep breath... phew.

Thanks Jeff Yap & Sheerah for standing beside through the entire drama guiding and cooling me down ... HAHA :D

Thanks MeiYee/Pui Yeeng/Yi Lin for FFK-ing at the vry last minute just to buy presents & make it a surprise visit while skipping dinner. ;)

Thanks for coming and supporting :)

also, thanks for the presents

25th of the DEC

25th Dec 2009
its One
weird/intense/frustrated/pressured/surprised/close to nervous breakdown

Christmas

May all you ppl wishes come true.. :)
and I might elaborate more on my christmas..depends if I got the inspiration to put the events into words.

P/s: Nobody is to be blame for what happened.. don't worry and many thanks for all of your efforts ;)

Joy to the world..

Christmas eve, this year is way different than the other years I've been through .. celebrating with a small bunch of friends.. instead of the usual of attending church Midnight service. Had countdown at the most unexpected place ever.. that no normal ppl in their right mind will think of.. LOL.

Guess where is this

'Christmas with AhBeng' tomoro and my Christmas is all about rehearsals in church. From morning till evening and night will be the event it self.. Gee.. cant I spend some time with family or frens during Christmas?? Not so happy about the way I'm celebrating my Christmas to be honest. Yet still, duty and responsibility have to come 1st.. above all.

As for a wish list..well .. 1 thing is I wished for a more normal sleeping habit.. and ofc a few more things that will be of my utmost secret :P

as for now.. signing off at... *look below*

its AM .. screw it

P/s: Merry Christmas :)