If only

you know who you are..

Thursday.. was the usual tuition/activity packed dull&frustrating&tiring day.. except I have to endure headache+cold throughout chemistry tuition.. Had to admit life has been dull lately.. real dull ...After exams however, I hope things will change. :DFriday was a holiday.. dint had a good rest though cause cant seem to sleep well the night before. Bah. Anyhow had steamboat at '碳世界'. Ate alot.. ALOT. I practically starved the whole day so I can eat my heart out that night. Well.. I succeed. Or so I think. The food is quite good.. atmosphere is great as well since they jst renovated it.

The chaos

Right after it had another "yumcha" session with afew church friends at Greentown new Kopitiam. That place looks almost like the Gunung Rapat's .. jst way more better. No pictures as we're too busy catching up with each other.

Would stop writing here now. I don't really have the inspiration to blog lately.. blame the dull life or whatever it is.. i just seem to lost the enthusiasm to blog. Well, just temporary of course :)

Gonna rely on candies to keep myself awake.. burning midnight oil

The sum of all fears.. i hate this word.. alot. Reminds me exam is around the corner.

After 2 weeks.. if all goes to plan of course

P/s: I need a plan. A good one.
P/s/s: Gahh.. why must exam be here now =.=

The car can wait

its been awhile i've updated my blog... cause I was somehow lazy to check up on my blog recently.. given the near to dead traffic. Anyways.. as usual alot of things happened.. and I dont know where to start..Well, i guess this should do. =P

In an elegant car, wearing a black expensive suit, he was dressed to his best. He is going to a prom night. Outside the ballroom he stopped his car. But it wasnt him that would be the one dancing. The man sitting behind him would be living his dreams for the night. He got down, walked to the opposite and opened the door with his ever white hand wrapped gloves..The men got downed, and without even a thanks or a simple glance he walked to the ballroom. All he could do, is watch and dream. But, this time around.. he wants an out of the ordinary night. So he stepped towards the ballroom, defying all laws of nature and shattering all of the boundaries.. he moved. The car can wait, The night was his to take, His life is about to change. He pushed the heavy gold plated doors walked in the ballroom with confidence.. without shaking a nerve. There he saw, among all, her..in his eyes he sees a prom queen. Dressed in her white prom dress, with red flower markings.. she danced. She turned down countless.. countless. And he know he is unqualified for a dance with her. Instead of turning back, he boldly move on with his pace. Walking forward without an intention to turn back. His mind told him, its suicide.. yet his heart was louder. He walked, and kept walking.. she was in the middle of the ballroom.. the distance is short.. yet it seems its like a mile long walk. There he stood infront of her, and she paused as well. He knelt, looking into her eyes...squeezing her hands. It was as if time stood still...with it... he said

"I'm not an actor I'm not a star
and I don't even have my own car
But I'm hoping so much you'll stay
that you will love me anyway"

*alarm rings* ..

Well thats about it.. I try recalling as much as I can but somehow this is all I can remember well.. Exams around the corner.. Good luck ppl =)


It was you all this long,
Its always you.

and, to the Cockroach

Yeah. thats you. Happy 19th Birthday. I know you existed in this world when I was form 1 .. and really get to know you when I was form 2, when I was unfortunately got stuck with you in a same patrol for one whole year :P . Also don't think I forget what happened during form4 when you 'mistaken' me as a sandbag and screamed all your problems out in the store room...locked and trapped...well I assume it as a coded message cause all I hear is "arrrr" "grawwwrr" "gaahhhh" "high pitch voices". It was an 'awesome' experience. Lucky, now you learn to say your problems out.. not shouting, HAHA. Also, thanks for all those advices you gave. Those where you are quite experienced in. =P And yes, hope you like whipped cream... cause we figured a cake would be too exp.. HAHA. Enjoy your last year as a 'teen' bro.


Okay, right now? I am still having that holiday mood. SO DEAD. well, at least for one.. tonight manage to motivate myself to start work again.. homework.. and here there are TONS TONS TONS x 3427428748234 of 'em. well, blame myself for over enjoying my holidays... but it was WORTH IT! =P

Ahh spots day then exams.. its the exam season once more. I feel like my school is run by idiots.. like helloooo? Who in the world put sports day just before exams?(apparently the school I'm in) Don't you think we need to study? Whats more.. the others would be busy practicing and competing for this 2 weeks that do you think they would hav sufficient time to study? Dont give me that manage your time well crap, Why dont you more mature people manage the time table better? Oh btw, i just feel unhappy about it.. and nope I'm not participating any sports .. so Im actually not affected =P


Wandering the streets, in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair
round your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you.

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will

Forgive me if I st-stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cause I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
Do I seem familiar, I've crossed you in hallways
a thousand times, no more camouflage
I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall.

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you

If I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a mood I would
Shout out your name so it echoes in every room, yeah

That's what I'd do,
That's what I'd do,
That's what I'd do,
To get through to you

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will

P/s: Now.. where was I? Oh yeah.. at the brink.

220210

As a friend said, 2 is better than 1.
As I said, I dont have any idea


So.. while I was counting ang pau money..

Hellooooo? its GXFC! not this =.=

Had to admit .. this year ang pau income is vry vry low.. like im experiencing some recession or something. Too bad I dont have those really loaded relatives that toss their ang pau to you with 50bucks inside.. or write a cheque ..

Tried to sleep early the night before school starts. Tried to do myself a favor cause I barely sleep properly for the entire 1 week holiday.. except for 2 days. Was about to doze off... cozy.. drowzy .. breathing slowly .. i feel a good night dream awaits.. then .. *BOOOM* .. fire crackers mayhem ruined my night.. and I end up dozing off at around 3am. CRAZY PEOPLES! DONT THEY KNOW THEY HAVE NEIGHBOURS??

Today in class .. almost half of my classmates dint attend school .. then the remaining half was zombified and sleeps in class .. I crumbled during chemistry.. chemistry has this mystical sleeping atmosphere that makes me sleep. Then nearly half of my classmates collapse during physics.. a sight to behold. A slow 1st day of school .. where in my mind I was expecting a highly pressurized and stress intense 1st day.. well .. thanks to peer pressure I moved at an insanely slowed pace on the 1st day. That explains why am I sitting in this chair .. writing this POST.

Also watched 72 家租客 today.. when I was suppose to go tuition =.=
Okay nuf said .. Im obviously still in HOLIDAY MOOD.. my
mind is still in hawai or some
distant place



I'm in fear. Fear of failure. Cause I already know failure is a too high price to pay for this case. But as quoted, courage is not the absence of fear, instead its having realized that there is something more important than fear.

P/s: thanks for all the support. But we all know eventually I'm on my own. still many thanks.

36 hours to go

Was actually planning to sleep early yesterday.. really! I swear! but end up having insomnia and came back online and chat. Then tried to sleep again.. but end up watching tv and fb till 3am... = =|| its a miracle if I can sleep early during holidays. So, today morning was so tired that I decided to cancel out everything and spend a little 'ME' time. Ahh bliss!!!

'Me' time during CNY = spitting lead on ppl in pc, channel walking in astro, also.. the best part yet count ang pau money.. ;D

Still, felt an impending doom approaches.. like a time bomb ticking...ticking.. & ticking.. It all feels so calm right now.. the calm before the chaos.. Just like when they are counting down in rugby..

All hell is bout to be unleashed, the calm before the storm

Anyhow, must always keep this attitude on my mind. Never waver from it.

Duty above self agenda


Out in the breeze way
Spring is on its way
I know I am still here
Here, is exactly where?

Off the cliff, or a land faraway
somewhere things goes my way
I crave for one more escape
This time it wont be a mistake

I promise,

A thousand promises I made
Not even hundreds came
I aint someone perfect
But I'm no abject

I'm sorry,

Never was I a human architect
Failing to understand its intellect
For those disappointment
trust me there would be a decrement

I need,

the clock to slow its pace
For there is no more space
faith to believe there is grace
courage to know fear is a waste

Healing takes time
even a heart has its pace
but how long its gonna take
too long would be a mistake

I left,

away from this pity party
I'd rather have some calamari
I wont dwell anymore in this bitter
neither am I going to cry out a river

Never thought,

my memories still wasnt in a pink of health
But its time to clean this filth
Its already overdue
and as always to myself I stay true to

For one, thanks for reminding.

P/s: Its quite random cause Its a kinda 1st hand thought.
P/s/s:homework..Homework..HOMEWORK.. *girlish scream*

Lunar rampage

So.. my CNY. This few days are like hours or minutes to me.. its gone by so quick.. so fast. However the weather is really really hot.. sometimes I thought I was having fever.. but its actually the weather.. and whats worse the ulser in my mouth is getting worse.. throwing me into a constant foul mood. Not to mention an incident occurred that made me firggin pissed off that night. I felt as if I was played or being set up. Only afew get it, and NO.. its NOT what u think it is. Enough with the ranting.. let the pictures talk.

this is ART! :P
Classmates :)
The MAFIA FAMILY

Enjoyed good food as well :)

So its been an awesome week.. well .. half of it. There is still half week to go. And when school starts its gonna be hell on earth again.. great.

Even Aliens needs entertainment.. right?

P/s: Planning on getting a new phone.

hypothèse fausse?

Had to say, Life been both awesome and suckish recently. Got that right.. on one hand been playing and resting my mind like theres no tomoro everyday on the other .. well.. be surprised I am not getting much good food during Cny.. thx to ulsers on my mouth. Blah.

Visitations, outings, gaming.. Poof then its all over and back to school. How I wish, this week never ends.


I have alot more to blog about. But I stopped abruptly just right after I open a fb app and it gave out this quote. And I decided to end with it.

Crazy as it happens... We keep going back to one thing we need to walk away from...

P/s: I figured wrongly, when I figured I learned my lesson.