Make or break

It's not New Year resolutions, nor big promises that make or break life, it's the innumerable small actions you take every hour that compound into a life well lived

- Facebook

P/s: I will be back.

Single

but I have no idea am I available or not.

Over and over again I have told myself, being single is very damn fun. There is no strings attached, lesser commitments, less responsibility, and definitely less issues to think about. But there comes a point in life that you will feel something is missing, even after all those outings, all those crazy nights.

I've been having that feeling for quiet sometime already. And frankly sometimes it is disturbing. I've been praying for the right one, she doesn't needs to be perfect, but of course she does needs to meet afew ticks on my list. But yeah, even if I meet the right one, will she be single? Will she even be interested to know me? I might be confident on most things, or at least looked confident. But on the most side, I'm jst putting up a strong front. Underneath that mask, there is always doubt and self questionings. 

Heck, being able to think about this is already a luxury. Usually when problems comes in life, relationship is always at the far end for me. Probably now is just the start of a new sem and life had jst slowed down a little bit for me to indulge in this matter.

Heck, probably it is just peer pressure cause ppl around me seem to be like moving on with life while I am still stagnant and still. 

Sigh, whichever it is. Or mayb it is just some slow songs at this hour alone made me feel a little bit emo. Oh wells. Life goes on and time still flies.

Wonder how my life would turn out in the coming few months. I will believe it is awesome.

And I am trying, all the best I can to be a better person. I will always take this phrase to heart, It's not all about finding the right person, It's also about being the right person. I am gonna keep believing, even though I suck at it, I am gonna have faith, that this silent prayer would be answered. Also I will believe

Love never fails. I hope.

Let what happens in the internet stays in the internet. For those who came across this, this is just Me speaking my mind. Which I tend to do alot on the internet realm.

Heart pounding

Deep slow breathes. Steady hands. Firm grip on the Disc. Get my head in the game.

Quoted frm 'Six billion freaks in this world Apr 27, 2010'

Back to Ipoh, to my warm family, to my comfy bed. Now gonna continue what I have been doing. Endurance training and Jogging. The trick is to keep my mind fresh and steady even though my heart is pounding at thousands of beats per min.

Competition is one month away, though I'm not sure whether am I qualified into the junior team or if there is a junior team, I am gonna give my best. At least I can see how much I can achieve in one month. No slowing down, no skipping days, no procrastination.

I'm just dreaming out loud.

The photos is taken from one of my previous blogpost. I edited it a lil more. Kinda really like this photo.

It's been awhile since I literally fallen down, and it's been awhile i've taken 'when you fall down, get back up and walk again' literally. My knee does hurt like crap thou D:

Life as we know it

Just a usual night. Frisbee, then vcammed a guy shaving his beard, drank a weirdly addictive tea at an arabian shop house, stayed up almost all night chatting there, went to friends place to watch movies and here I am.

Maybe I forgot to mention bout it, but life is Inti is crazy sometimes & occasionally epic. Raya week break, can't wait to go back home.

Contingency

I ponder deeply sometimes, what If I my contingency plan was not valid and I am forced to follow my original plan. Of course, because of the luxury of being able to choose, I did not pursue my vry 1st plan with guns ablazing. For one, If I wasn't given a choice, I would only start my studies in a months time, or now if I am extremely lucky. Or, I might be going to Kampar take the cheapest course available get a degree, come out and start building my career. But no, I was given a choice to choose beyond all this. And here I am, in Inti Nilai, 1 semester later and semester 2 is about to start tomorrow.

But now, having to fall back on my contingency plan, I already have too much to loose. If should I fail, money would be wasted, time and my future would be bleak as ever. If should I end up failing, in my household there is only me to take care of my parents. So the pressure is pretty intense when I think about it, but usually I steer clear of this thought.

Tomorrow would be the day I enroll. And right now I'm just chilling in my room in Inti.( actually I am bored to death hence explains blogging.lol ). Can't wait to go flick(frisbee) actually = ="

Stop for a minute

and smile :)

Good bye for now. It has been good and well, but this 3 weeks made me realize that there is more important things in life to pay attention to. Good bye for the moment, and I will promise I will be back. And when I am back, I will never be the same. I will be better. More than that, I will be ready.

Never stop believing

Oh! and finally updated the song list in my blog. Enjoy :D

Hardwork

It pays off. 

Those night staying awake to finish off the assignments, those hours spending in the classroom being a good boy by paying attention(i tried), the non-stop study marathon 2 days before exam and before exam. It was worth it, every single second of the torment is worth it. And I've even got a bonus, I got more then I expected. *hands waves on air*

Suffice to say, my very 1st time getting an A- in like 3years. Daebak!!

Gonna do better next semester, Hwaiting!!

Seven days ago

by Mocca.

Well another song bumped on when I was watching Invincible Youth. Aside from that.. few more days to the release of my result. I am hoping for the best, that is to pass my subjects.

I am quite confident for the business class.. but for the HCI(human computer interaction) I have no idea what to expect. Sure my course work marks did pull some weight but I did vry badly for my 10% test. And I still need quite a few marks to hit the 50% mark. I am worried. 

In the mean time, since I am quite free in Ipoh.. I decided to take a stroll at a small park just outside my house. Ofc, I carried along my camera.  Here's afew shots.

Earth laughs in flowers.  

Ralph Waldo Emerson, "Hamatreya"

In need of a better perspective.

Those aren't

scars. They are medals for trying.

Alfred Lord Tennyson's poem In Memoriam:27, 1850:

I hold it true, whate'er befall;
I feel it, when I sorrow most;
'Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all.

But, not every case can be applied to this. Sometimes, life just have a different calling for you to live. 

Yet I am sure in this. I will put my heart into it, my time and my sweat. My effort will echo it into the winds and hope that one day it would land on fertile soil. For they say, you reap what you sow. To this I will always hold dear to. To this, I will never forsake.

Empty streets may have remnant cries of yesterday's failures.

Mourn that of which is dead and live for the living. Some dreams are just meant for the moment in time, and then dead for the time to come. Live for the dreams that is alive, for the dreams that may not come true, but bring you to where you should be. 

Life, is full of surprises. Take it and go.

Behold!

The baby who stares at camera

Parent's cell group member thought there was cell group last night. But turns out they forgot it was cancelled. They also brought along their 5months(i think) old baby. It was sleeping at 1st .. then she(i think also - -) woke up.. so having a camera by my side I did the next best thing: Introducing the baby to the camera. Good thing was, at 5months old, their sight is nt vry developed so to get her attention I have to make some voice...some very...well.. Let's call it voice and leave it at there.

Actually.. I think I've terrified her instead D:

and after awhile..

 

RAWR!! I WANT SLEEP. EVERYONE LEAVE ME ALONE!! RAWR!!!

haha .. actually the baby just gently yawned.

Anyways. That's random. Also results is gonna be released soon .. Oh it better be good.

The last time

Bumped on this song while I was re-watching invincible youth(Yes, i am that free). Find it pretty awesome. The lyrics itself is gold.

Aside from that, things seems to be going according to plan to my delight. But don't think my feet could agree with me. Also surprised myself today .. doing more then my normal quota of swimming n jogging. Apparently the stamina training is proven effective.. well hopefully.

I hate going into games(whatever games) and then start gasping for air like an old man in 5 mins.

Running man

on fire!!! 

Like, literally.

Who else better to know when is the right time then myself? What I know is, right now it's the wrong time. I am busy trying to fix a life that I almost screwed up. Screaming Geronimo and plunging myself would not help anything.

And the rain could never come at a better time :)

New week starts, new quota to be made. Whoo-ah!!! I will return stronger and better.

Send me away

with the words of a love song.

Finally, my comfy bed, awesome family and spectacular food.Ipoh is still the best. Well, of course it could be a little boring on and offs since quite alot of people has started studying. 

It seems it's always at night when my thoughts would just drift away. For this moment, I am thinking bout what my dad ask just yesterday night over dinner. When am I gonna get married? Actually he asked when is he gonna get to see his grandchild.. but yeah that was wayyy too far ahead. 

Kinda think of it, I always gave ppl a random number when ppl did ask me bout it. 25 was what I said, but I never really did put much thought into it, and even now I am still single(kinda sound desperate don't I? LOL). I am 20, and if i really wanted to be married by 25.. that is just 5 years left. And in 10years time I would hit 30. Damn that is fast. 

It's like life is moving at the speed of light when we start thinking about it

Well mayb, just maybe it's really time to put some thoughts into what I am looking for in life. What my goals are, and then also find someone who share the dream as I do, instead of getting hoo-ha over any girl I am attracted to.

 Hopefully the dawn would wake me from the slumber at the right timing.

Truth is, I have mostly figured out what I wanna do in life already. Well, mostly I suppose.

BBQ-ed

literally. 

So after finished with my finals for the sem I stayed back in Nilai.. combating the severe homesickness. Why? Cause I was gonna head down to Johor to spectate an Ultimate Frisbee competition, SDU open to be precise.

Honestly I am just a noob when it comes to sports, since my better part of my life is spent with computers and internet. Although I joined scout, I came to realize it is entirely different. Still, out of the point.

Atm i am suffering from a severe sun burn. My back hurts, face, heck.. even my lips hurts. Epic. WHY DIDNT I JUST MAN DOWN AND USE SUNBLOCK. Joke. I just have this tendency to say no to sunblock. Should better not repeat this bad habit next time.

The competition itself was an eye opener. Their strategies, skills(duh?), even the way they utilize their players. Through this trip I got a better grasp of how the game works. Well, gonna start stamina building 1st then for the free time in Ipoh. 2 weeks isn't much, but it is a good start. If I do not procrastinate of course.

Aside from being sunburned out of my right mind, I also did a lot of traveling this 4days. Short update for now. No pics, all still in Sunny.. lazy to copy'em all out.