Doubt?

I'm not fond the way things are going to be truthful.
Just when I thought I foresee a smooth ride, things got bumpy & tough.

3rd week into school and I'm doubting if I could handle it. Things werent as easy as I figured. There is just so much to do.. so little time. Homework, revisions, also .. need to spend time to clear my head to plan for kolokium & xinxuan..which thus far.. I FAILED to do so, makes me felt so irresponsible. I'm bad at multitasking. Getting stressed, uneasy, uncomfortable, anxious. Added up.. Muet is just months away.. I havent even made any real effort to improve my English & I recalled vividly I told myself to aim for Band6 last year.. with unshaken confidence yet, now beset with doubt. That explains my recent bad/aggressive attitude. I need to find an activity or something to blow off some steam.

It's so much like trying to keep a sinking ship afloat.. trying to hold my world together from falling apart. Where was the dedicated value I picked up last time? Time to instill it into me once more.

Still, had to say.. its those little laughing & retard moments that are keeping me sane. That is why I hate being alone during this period of time.

P/s: this is jst the small fraction of the ppl responsible for keeping me sane :)

If you want the rainbow, you must put up with the rain
D. Parton (photo by : Enjun)

*add-on at 11pm 21-1-10*
Also .. the recent news of the Penang Dragon boat capsized. One of them is a scout.. not just any scout... He is the troop leader of ChungLing scout. Its sad to see a fine person perish due to avoidable accidents..his family&friends must be devastated by this. My utmost condolence to them.

also

Mentos, ur friendly mental energizer in a package!!
Get a pack now for only Rm2 and ur mental awareness will guaranteed!!
Beware! over consumption might lead to problems like diet bates & also.. *u guess*

popping Mentos like crazy jst to keep myself awake. Blah.

P/s:The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong-Mahatma Gandhi.