To the left where nothings right ;

To the right where nothings left.

Pondering.....
Is being soft, being weak? Is being forgiving, being vulnerable? Is accepting, being compromising?

We all have problems. What set us apart is how we choose to deal with it.

Also. Left my stash of books in school. Epic FAIL! = =
Cant do homework, cant do kolokium.. sigh..so dead.

P/s:If life is a bed of roses. Bare in mind, roses have thorns.

Testing.. 1..2..3..?

Figured I tried something new.

Show encrypted text

Yeap. Password protected.

& ofc, its something sensitive.

P/s: Those 3 words in high school.
P/s/s: If u knw the answer.. be quite. :P

In My Sleeep~

By:Austin Hartley-Leonard & Kendall Jane Meade

Overheard this song while watching Chuck's newest episode. It was really fitting for that scene..as usual. One thing good about the Chuck series is that its always able to incorporate the right music into the right moments into the scenes.. always make it seem .. almost flawless. Anyway.. enjoy the music and the lyrics. The music is relatively simple and calm.. and Im surprised cause I cant find any video tutorial on youtube on how to play this song. Not even able to download this music.
P/s: Tis aint emo song if any of u r wondering.

Someday, dark has turned to grey
The stars have made their way
I raise my glass and part my lips tend to many deep
The only time I see you is in my sleep

Someday, get up on my way
I think I'll be okay for a while
I know you were never mine to keep
But I know that I'll see you in my sleep

But time has been unkind
and kept me far from you
But I know you will be holding me
In my sleep

I've been hanging on
scraping by all my life
And I know you will be holding me
In my sleep

I've been hanging on
Scraping by all my life

And I know I'll miss you
I'll always miss you
But I know I'll see you
In my sleep

I know I'll miss you
I'll always miss you
But I know I'll see you
In my sleep

Anyhow.. practically locked down myself at home today. Sick. Not going into details.. vry lazy to explain...jst tat I might think twice before ordering maggi goreng double next time.. well .. just MAYBE. :P
And this week was a mess.. everything is going off schedule.. gonna catch back up next week. No more lagging behind.

No, its not falling. Its flying.
(positive thinking with a little imagination or ignorance?)

Still very disorientated after almost 14hours of sleeping.
I really need to talk it out.. all this bottle up inside.. I know I will snap and explode pretty soon. Tis aint normal dammit.

Thanks

for the memories, even though they weren't so great~

Obviously I'm not free to update my blog.
Well actually, the real reason would be my housing area has a phone line problem.. difficult to explain.. but put it simple..the problem is serious to a magnitude that I can't even use my house phone at all.

internet: Disconnect

SO NO INTERNET! .. And I'm currently updating this blog at my school's very own computer lab .. with depressingly snail speed.(Melvin:It cant even load MOUSEHUNT!!) HAHA. Its a good thing however.. recently been so caught up with stuffs that I shouldnt actually have time for internet.

I wish to say I'm tired with life. All of its ups and downs.. All of its bullshit.. All of its unexpected turns of events.. 'Might sounds harsh, but life is harsh. Gotta be harsh-EnJun'. But then life had thrown more shits at me before than what I'm facing now. Live.Laugh.Love .. life is too short to be engulfed by grief.

I actually wished so

Crap.. No internet.. no download.. no chuch series*scream* .. cant dwl songs.. cant msn .. cant facebook.. Guess i'm addicted to internet.. take it as a course to cure my addiction .. or at least focus my addiction on something else.. prefferbly.. STUDY! :P

P/s: Maybe i do need a miracle to get myself out of this chaos right now..

Feels like

dejavu.. no, not crap.. its serious and its weird.

Spend all your time waiting for that second chance
For the break that will make it okay
There's always some reason to feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
They may be empty and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

-Arms of an Angel by Sarah McLachlan

Definitely one of the songs with the best lyrics ever. Also, was late to ministry leaders retreat today.. reason? OVERSLEPT =________= . Epic. Anyhow... still manage to get myself there in one piece with the 'im in a hurry' driving. Had breakfast at Starbucks. For one.. my work load will be lighten a little .. since I'm retiring frm 3M head for this year.

Seriously Orange.. SERIOUSLY!

It rained too .. nice :)

24 hours left too finish up piles and piles of homework.. sigh.

P/s: insomnia.. dammit. I just cant sleep.

Bougainvillea

This 2 days been insanely physical taxing..Seems just almost everything I got myself involved in requires me to stretch my flesh a lil. Also not to mention mentally, well it wont be mentally taxing if there isnt Physics homework and quiz for next week...or the daredevil act of volunteering to attend 7 hours of tuition.. haha. Anyhow.. very tired right now.. and I SHOULD BE ON THE BED. Somehow insomnia decided to kick in during this period.. very unperfect timing =.= . Cmon.. insomnia, would u only visit me during exams and while rushing for last minute assignments? Anytime but nt during holidays =______________________=


Today took a chance to dip myself in the water at the Bougainvillea club near my house .. after soooo long. Feels awesome.. really.. Awesome. Really a good way of stress relief. If you don't know where is it.. jst look for the tallest building while you are in bercham.. It definitely drags alot of attention since its the tallest building in the area.. also ..it looks like a castle..No joke.

Even the entrance is big..look how tiny my car is in tis pic =.=
Inside is tiled with marble floors.. ahh elegance :)
(you can even hear ur footsteps echo.. which is a lil creepy)
The pool also offers exquisite view of its surrounding
(the view isnt tat great actually..buildings nearby ruins the scenery)

Well build, artfully decorated.. but poorly maintained. Makes me disappointed everytime I visit this place.. If only I am filthy rich.. I might buy this building and make sure its run in top shape all the time!!(Procrastination..if i got the cash .. i wont do it)

Anyhow.. should be sleeping.. still got a meeting tomoro.. dnt even knw if I got the mental capacity to handle it.. Wait..I HAD TO = =

Homework.. project.. Muet assignments.. xinxuan(Tis really delayed till I feel like slapping myself-.-) ..Upcoming Muet test.. HOMEWORK! ..can I clone myself to handle everything in one go? .. blardy hell.

P/s: 3..2...1.. doze off. insomnia Begone!

Square one

wait..square two maybe?

Okay. I have alot.. and I MEAN ALOT to say bout this holiday. Don't know where to start. Well lets say.. things just went both awesome&terrible. A little of both. Anyway holidays just made me realize I have so many more things to do and the workload is piling up.. consistently in both quantity and frequency.. =.= .. grhh. So much for resting. Passion of my work & the love of my job... well guess thats appropriate now. Much needed is enthusiasm to study..since im starting to be deprived of it.. >.< (as always).

Shady images, fades of gray
neither reality nor a dream
its forever a memory to behold & appreciate

Random craps and short post.. I know. I will start blogging appropriately soon. After holidays mayb. Stay tuned. =P

Okay, back to work.

P/s:Enjun,Booyeong,Junie..sincerely, many thanks =)

Everything has already..

its no longer what I figured it would be. Infact it was the other way around

Flashy lights, Expensive atmosphere, Loud music, Speakers that are 2-3times bigger than me, life inspiring message, a just cause, an awesome concert =)
Attended the 'Change Your World' concert. Well .. kinda enjoyed it.. probably the music they are playing jst aint my cup of tea. Great band though.

Was involved in a preliminary round of a debate competition. No, OFC NOT ME DEBATING LA! I'm just the one counting the time and slamming my palms on the bell. Like my job.. HAHA.. cause i get to be a bad guy slamming the bell and I knw they hate the sound of the bell cause it means their time is up.

Time to reflect on my own mistakes
I have made, One too many.

Screw those stupid feelings thats building up tears in my eyes. Screw those stupid ego stopping me from doing so. Screw myself for getting into this shit at the 1st place. FML!
I dont know who to turn to.. its like I'm all alone...I need advice from some1 older.. some1 who I could rely on.. some1 that I could trust.. I hate standing alone.
P/s: So dead.. holiday homework..

Faith is

the art of holding on to things your reason has once accepted in spite of your changing moods

-C.S.Lewis

Been very busy after exams.Thus, No time to blog..And I cant seem to find my mem.card reader for my phone.. which means i cant transfer any pictures into my pc. Soo.. no pictures for now.:P

So far?
Still havent get any appropriate rest even after exams.. and wont be getting any at all anytime sooner.(explains my lost of enthusiasm for almost anything -.-)

Watched Elise(my muet teacher) in U6XX.. oh i mean Alice in Wonderland. Well .. fun movie to watch.. but its a whole lot diff than the Alice in wonderland's storybook.*imagining Elise slaying the dragon*.. HAHAHA

Just received shocking news tat one of our ex-classmates lost a family member. Gonna pay her a visit later tonight with my classmates.

Freaked out evertime i look at my stash of holiday homework.
Freaked out also realizing i am not doing my holiday homework.
Freaked a hell lot more when i look at those questions and realize its like gibberish to me.

well, thats my holiday so far. As they said, the best is now, and better is to come.. =.=
great.



We laugh at honor and are shocked to find traitors in our midst-C.sLewis.
I gotta admit, i was very shocked and disturb after what I heard yesterday. And I am puzzled right now.. not knowing who to trust anymore.

Pre - monthly exam over

Few hours to a momentarily break/freedom/timeout. Gotta say, I should remind myself to stop doing things at the last minute. Its a surprise that I could even get any marks for my paper judging frm the ways that Im studying. Just a short short update. 1.20am.. damn. Coffee works wonders :D

Remember those days? When we'r jst so damn naive.

P/s: Now, where do I start?

Capital Punish me!

Enough said. I am VERY disappointed. VERY!..sigh.

To be honest? I should know this word!! I recalled i came across it once long time ago. And I was told the meaning of it.. BUT WHY I FORGET!.. & there goes 40marks. GONE. POOF.

So it was a bad start.. a really bad one indeed.
Oh well, no time to grief .. next ones coming up pretty soon.

Even the calculators are screaming
(credit to Melvin)

No, no more in fear. There is so many things more important than fear.
No, not sleeping well...Shandy is nt knocking me out either.
&
Mr.Hee Park Chee(Chem Teacher) is convinced that my shop sells pirated CDs.. thanks to my classmates.
He also suspects that the shop is mine. MINE, not my parents. WHAATT?

P/s: Destress post. I know =P

Faith - Jordin Sparks.

A song for everyone :)

Hey There said eyes

What's on your mind
Don't look so down
Give it some time

You don't have to be so hard on yourself, I know the world can be a brutal place, please don't let it steal your smile away.

Cause when thew sky's the darkest
You can see the stars
And when you fall the hardest you find how strong you are

Close your eyes, rest awhile, it's been a long, long day. So come on baby, baby have a little faith.

Let thoes tears fall, you gave it your all, It's all you can do, I'll be here for you. and there's go your cry, crushed on the ground. Sometimes it takes a wall to tumble down. For you to see who's gonna stick around.

Cause when the skys the darkest
You can see the stars
Cause when you fall the hardest
You find how strong you are.
Close your eyes, rest awhile, it's been a long, long, long, day. So come on baby, baby have a little faith.

Sometimes it gets worst before it gets better
And it takes too much to be brave.
Sometimes it feels it will hurt forever
But when all the lights are yet to fall.

And when the skys the darkest
And when you fall the hardest
You find how strong you are
Close your eyes, and rest awhile, it's been a long, long day. So come on baby, baby, come on baby.

And have little faith,
Have a little Faith

Oooooh
Have a little faith
Have a little faith
Have a little faith

P/s: Sometimes it takes a wall to tumble down. For you to see who's gonna stick around.

Breathee in..

Breathee out.. Listen to the hearts pace.. Empty my thoughts.. Time to to jump.

into a realm of infinite possibilities

Exams in 9 days. Excluding Muet. Muet will be on this Friday. So, there wont be any updates for sometime. Pressure.. pressure.. damn, its more tense then I figured. Insomnia is kicking in. Gonna be drinking loads of coffee for the week I guess.

Guess that is one of the reasons why I kinda exploded(even its just a few minutes) today. I would blame for being too stressed up and wasnt in the mood to get involved. Anyhow, forget what happened. It doesnt matter much really.

F.Y.I , somethings joked at the wrong time is actually deadly

Behold, the Yellow Sponge of Catastrophe

Do it at your own risk

Squidward: Would you not stand so close. I'm getting claustrophobic.

Patrick: What does claustrophobic mean?

Spongebob: It means he's afraid of Santa Claus!

Squidward: No it doesnt!

Patrick: HO HO HO!

Spongebob: Stop it Patrick youre scaring him!

Patrick: HO HO HO!
(yes, I have nothing better to post about :P)

P/s: What other people thinks, no longer matter. I should set my priorities right. I can't please everyone.